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moved!

2010-01-20T11:40:00.003+08:00

i've moved!
http://cherlynaw.wordpress.com/
do leave a comment ah, or else i'll be like talking to air.. :)
at least i know u are there :)

see ya there!

2010-01-14T14:51:00.004+08:00

loves!

GG = Good game

2010-01-08T15:37:00.002+08:00

i'm having php UT later. confirm fail one lor....
&& GG, i forgot to take my medicine for 2 days already, or rather twice already. ahha
sighhhhh, phone haven been stop ringing since 2pm.
grrrr, its none of my business so yea, i'm not going to take any unknown phone calls. :)

boyf is taking me to tpy later to collect his angel eyes for moonlight.
and i'm so gonna receive another round of nagging for not taking my medi. sighhhhh
life is bad.
everything will blow over soon.
everything will. :)

with love

2010-01-07T18:06:00.004+08:00

let's not blog unhappy stuffs with happy stuffs.
it will ruin the atmosphere.

1. happier note, i finally know what's wrong with the pain i'm experiencing for months.
hahs, thou expensive treatment, but at least no more guessing here & there.

2. dad made me breakfast yesterday, with melted cheese with ham & egg. WEETS!

3. love was all around me, i guess i'm a very fortunate one, cos other ppl might only have family & boyf, well, i've received alot of friends concern in different forms. thou i didnt replied some of you, but i do appreciate your concerns. :)

4. comtempting if i should get a ipod touch or a iphone?

5. && its my official last day of work @ fila until after CNY, so tt means no more late sleeping & more rest!

i should be contented with the above. :) & i'm happy for that.

F***

2010-01-07T17:10:00.004+08:00

fucking hell, found myself being made use of. CHEEBYE.
first round, needed my help, use such tactics to get me to find ppl for ya...
2nd round, ur words totally prove tt u already don need me, and so obviously i have been make use of. just another tools to earn money. FUCK man.

first time, i thought i could learn something from you.
well, tt's totally wrong of me to think tt way.
i merely learnt how to twist my words when problem arise, and push everything to someone else.
u taught me tt. :)
or rather its none of my business. u got the contacts already, finish making use of me already what.
HAHAHAHAHA, found myself so silly to believe u in the first place.
finish the 2 i have on hand, i'll wash my hands off these..
pffffftt. so fucking dulan with your words.
MONEY is all you have in your eyes. dont you?

let's not mention names. feel guilty? yes, i'm fucking hell referring to you.
grrrr.
let's not put others in a difficult position. i shall forgive, not forget. :)
after all this was one way of my thinking, perhaps to you it wasnt like tt. i dunno.
i don bother to clear the air anyway.

2010

2010-01-04T15:10:00.004+08:00

-clearing all spider webs-

hello everyone, hi 2010!
i realise i haven been blogging often. so here i am.
how have i spend my holidays?
hmmmm,
i practically been a good girl, worked all the way.
i merely went out thrice in a whole of 3 weeks.
1 is meeting my girls on the 29th DEC, a date with love, and another is a short getaway countdown to the new year with love.
i have no life i know.
sigh, no more life for me for 1 month before CNY.
but i have $_$. jiayou wor cherlyn. 1 more month to endure....

everyone have their 2010 resolutions. so here's mine:
1. i want my family to be in a whole piece, no broken here & there.
2. i want everyone to live healthily, peace to the world.
3. i wish those friends close to me will still remain.
4. i want something i can call my own.
5. ACHEIVE SOMETHING BIG IN MY 20YEARS OF LIFE.
6. graduate smoothly.
7. i want a brighter side of love.
8. HK/TAIWAN trip with my girls.
9. a birthday party!
10. FYP to be not as scary as i thought it would be.

well, tt's what is fulfillable.. unfulfillable ones are that:
1. i want a chanel earrings
2. SYLVANIAN families
3. Fendi sunglasses
4. SHOPPING VOUCHERS, takashimaya one preferred.
5. IPHONE
6. burberry watch & polo tee
7. more clothes~~~

its unfulfillable cos baby says i got to save. sigh. life is bad. :(
i've got my resolutions, what's yours?

SUPER BUSY MODE ON-

2009-12-19T13:10:00.004+08:00

told you i have a bad feeling.
yes, my lappy died on me again. :(
send for repair again...... sobs.

been really tied down by work recently.
don even have time to sleep, let alone shopping.
the only time i shop is my break, since i'm working at ION.
& so far, i spend few hundreds within an hour. :(
trying to protect myself from being scolded, of course boyf doesnt know lah...
keke, work is one thing.

got to cook scallop porridge for love le....
till then, cya.

2009-12-11T14:34:00.002+08:00

i sense something wrong. oh no, got a feeling my lappy's gonna die again. :(

boyf booked out today, like finally.
woke up damn early today to fetch him from tuas area.
hopefully not caught by speeding camera.
i've got this temptation to speed whenever the road is clear. i dunno why.

UT yesterday. buang.
10 lessons, i only came for 2. power uh?
let's see what's coming up next.
hmmm, i smell xmas near. but yours truely is so broke.
boyf's bday is the main killer, & my toys.
hahs, shall go on budget xmas gift hunting soon.

oh no, the pain is coming back.....
sigh..... :(
H-E-L-P~

did u mean what u say?

2009-12-10T14:43:00.003+08:00

oh man. another emo day.
cannot talk properly ah, so hostile for what?
humph. :(

full shift today. shit.
going back to skool for exam later den back to work again. sigh.
fucking hell, RP send letter to my house 2nd time in a semester.
fuck, mummy nag nag nag till i woke up.
super chanting award for her man.
the worst thing is she flip behind the letter, she saw a long list of days i'm absent for class.
power pack! no choice, to prevent her from continuing nagging, told her i'm off to work.
ta-da!
here i am.

shwubing is kind enough to let me study while at work.
ended up blogging away. haha~
i seriously needa stop all these. i cannot go over to taka anymore.
every break i'll end up at taka department store, choosing which toy to buy.
taka card member sales, i spend close to 400 on my toys.
hahs, baby paid part of it & the rest i paid.
can die. further more my cousin is working at SKII at taka, & she's my toy khakis.
she's the one who got me excited over sylvanian families after i've seen her's at her place.
yes, yknow, i spend like nobody's business when i'm down.
maybe more of a unsound mind when spending bah. keke.

anyway, i should just stop my craving for ROYCE chocolate soon.
yknow this shop is jus below my workplace, & is super tempting at times.
cant help but to get some & munch away while at work. cos ION is seriously nobody one.
parking wise, i've got complementary tickets. weet!

p/s: who's the one not replying to sms? who started disappearing first?

for you, my special someone.

2009-12-09T14:31:00.002+08:00

have u ever thought why would i say such words to hurt u?
have u ever wonder why i ask u to leave me alone, yet so much wanting to see ya msg everyday?
perhaps u might not know, i woke up every middle of the night, hoping to see ya msges, but its often upset for me to get back to sleep again.

u never know how happy i am to get u see u, even for a few hours.
understand u have ur things to do, trying hard not to bother u,
diverting my attention off u, yet it couldnt help. not a bit.
i missed you, i think of u alot.
it took me alot of courage to speak up what's on my mind, to tell u how i feel most of the time.
but i don get to know how u feel.
perhaps i'm being over sensitive.
eventually i dont wanto see whatever is happening right now.
u left me in a very confusing state.

whatever it is, be it if u are reading my blog or not,
i just wanto let u know,
i never mean to be tt way yesterday. u know its my darkest period of my life.
appreciate ur concern, but maybe the first sms u sent isnt sent at the correct time.
i read it, i flare up.
thinking if u mean what u say.
u hold a place in my heart, hopefully u know it.
& i miss u. i really do. :(

not again?

2009-12-08T14:34:00.004+08:00

its another week.
another quarrel.
oh well, this time with someone really close to me. not boyf.
made me really upset. really.
i don mean to use such harsh words, but this is really not the time.
it only leads to quarrels.
i'm feeling vexed enough.
oh well, jus leave me alone. alone.

happier note, its boyf's 21st today.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVELY! mucks~
pity tt i couldnt countdown with him last night,
cos tummy is giving me problems again. was in great pain last night,
but i didnt tell mum about it, cos she's happy for brother's POP today.
i don wanto spoil her mood, bringing me to hospital to & fro.
bear with the pain till i fall asleep while talking to baby on the phone.
so angry with myself for fall asleep 10mins before 12. :(

what's with me?
love sick? been days since i saw boyf.
was glad i could hear his voice still. memories flashed backed to the period when boyf first went into camp. 2 weeks is really hard for me. other than chiong-ing my job i dunno what i could do.
well, i miss boyf.
at least he's really there for me through all the downs in my life.
thankyou love, for being there.
not to forget my bestie, serene ng worrying for me these period of time.
i appreciate it alot. thanks dear <3

for the time being, i might not be driving anymore.
not becos i've got caught for speeding again, but becos needa save money.
most likely passing the car to my bro for 3days until his dad come back to collect it.
YAY, boyf will be out on fri!
meanwhile, i'll jus enjoy being a passenger. :)

HURT.

2009-12-04T23:48:00.002+08:00

maybe, this is the only way i could speak up.

wanted to share what's happening to me with few close ones, yet have no courage to.

i may appear fine physically, but mentally unsound soon.

this might be a long one, jus bear with me.

alot of things happened at home.

parents are quarrelling, worse, with a grandma at home to add oil to fire.

i said stuffs to make grandma unhappy, yes.

but i said tt in a moment of anger. becos grandma says something about my motherside family.

i mean, i'm part of motherside family as well.

& my grandfather(mum's side) is already dead, yet grandma (dad's side) doesnt let the matter rest.

even my aunts are creating untruth stories and publishing it to everyone.

saying how bad my mum is.

i'm her daughter, how would i feel to hear ppl talking bad about my mum?

naturally i stood up for my mum.

& of course, grandma says i sort of bullied her, putting words in my mouth telling everyone i scolded her.

yes, i admit i scolded her, but i didnt sound it so bad to scold her like how she tell the others.

it was mum's off day tt day.

grandma purposely shout at my mum saying her precious daughter (me) insulted her.

mum tried to ask what exactly what happen, but i heard the commotion.

i woke up from my sleep, shouted back.

of course to defend myself, since i didnt use such words on her.

she insist i did.

brought up whatever grandma says about my mother side's stuff, and the war begins.

u see my point?

i'm trying to protect those innocent ones, my mother side's family, & of course my mother.

yet mum gave me a tight slap for being rude.

i don see what's wrong with what i'm doing.

i'm protecting my own mother from all the insults grandma uses on her, yet i receive a SLAP from my mum.

have you guys ever spare a thought for my feelings?

i have my own pride, own dignity. did i do wrong?!

felt HURT. really did.

next, grandma THREW back all the money i gave her previously.

THREW. yes.

saying she doesnt owe me anything anymore.

well, i dunno what's the hidden meaning behind but well.......

i was hurt once again.

imagine me giving my grandma money, den she gave it back to me, saying she doesnt need anything from me.

yes, damn HURT again. :(

told u mentally unsound soon..

they are really driving me crazy....

&&&& my medical report.

many of u have been asking me about my report.

doc found this unknown fluid in my tummy.

well, even the doc dont know what's with the fluid.

its jus something not very normal la..
& if i'm in pain again, hospital to operation is a must. :(
grrrrr. things just went downhill for me, jus like any stock market could.

PAIN

2009-11-30T11:07:00.003+08:00

feeling really unwell, let's hope i don need to undergo operation. :(
parents are worried, for once i felt loved by them.
but still, i hope everything will soon be sunshine soon.
& to those who spread whatever to make my family turn out like this, oh well, you better watch it.
don say i don warn you.

becos of u, i say words that hurt grandma.
i'm feeling really guilty. :(

i need alcohol right now...

2009-11-26T09:46:00.004+08:00

as seen in these peaktures, we went taka & ion to shop.

but before tt, we went sunshine plaza to get our PP poster print.

i tell you, FM & shawn can really shop. i almost surrender already & they continues their shopping. OMG.

wanted to get boyf something, but those guys give me comments, making me don wanto buy already. :(

i am still waiting for 1dec to come, so i have additional 10% in taka depaartment store.

member not fake de lor. hehheh, time to redeem my taka vouchers lo!!!!

as mentioned, i had my PP presentation on tue.

i thought it went pretty smoothly, but after me, it was joshua's turn.

waited for him to come out & he told me he overheard my advior saying i'm very bias towards FILA. WHAT THE FUCK.

i thought i would fail this PP, but well, my comments turned out quite good.

kinda relieve to hear tt, and so, me & piongz slack around skool, since sharlene have her presentation @ 2.30pm.

CWP orange julias after tt, talk cock song song play mahjong till boyf came over to pick me up.

& i jus realise i only attended skool once this week, which is today.

wanted to come yesterday, but something happened at home.

i don wanto come to skool with my swollen eyes after crying the entire night.

i tell you, i have free flow of tears. maybe 1 to 2 litres tt night.

well, somethings i couldnt say much. it was up to dad to decide.

to my dad: though i come home late everynight, but still, no matter what u do, i'll be here with you. i know u are having a hard time now, but i'll brave through this with you. y'know i'll always love you.

still thinking if i should open my V.S.O.P martell i received as my birthday pressie this year from ruixian?

lovely lunch

2009-11-20T14:05:00.003+08:00

lunch at cwp yesterday..

had our latest gossiping session as we eat. LOL.

i enjoyed myself.

damn fucking stress over PP poster.

sent my lappy for repair, and went to see baby's rim's again.

went OG bugis, saw my SLYVANIAN families. omg, i almost wanto get everything at 1 go... financially unable to. cos a empty house is like 130plus liao :(

still waiting for the limited edition play house to be launch..

feeling blue, headed to icez to look for boyf & spencer yesterday. spencer was kind enough to send me home after tt since boyf have to book in early. stayed in the office trying to finish my complete my PP, but i cant. its alot........... :(

i envy those who have no worries about their project, they could play all the way.

somehow i got this weird feeling whenever i talk to you. i dunno. not close, but it seems some misunderstanding going-on.

well, if i'm doing the right thing, i don need to care.

leave it for your imagination to wonder then :)

this isnt a week for me.

alot of stuffs happened, one after another.

i'm tired. trying to solve 1 by 1, but it still persist.

feeling really stress up, feeling really blue.

tried diverting the attention something else, yet the more i got myself thinking of it.

laughter with friends in class was the most enjoyable ones.

sometimes perhaps putting yourself in my shoes would help.

i'm really sorry. weakless week.

2009-11-17T18:48:00.003+08:00

its tuesday today.
2nd day of the week & i'm so unhappy. i don like this week.
first of all, my laptop graphic card has problem, therefore my motherboard need to be repaired.
and tt cost me a bomb.
alot of ppl advise me to change a new laptop but, i have alot alot of stuffs in my current laptop.
and money cannot buy those memories back.
so depressing. of course, when i ask dad for money to repair my lappy, i got a scolding.
fuck man, its like my fault.
how the fucking hell do i know why i jus died on me?
further more, i have no back up copy of my PP project. damn stressing.
its either a re-do, or to retreive back from my advisor. :(
chances are really low that my advisor will keep a copy of my project. :(
to simlim with peizhuang; mummy to ask if i can get my lappy fixed.
yes, but its not worth it, cos its damn expensive. :(

2ndly, was about to leave parco carpark, i scratched moonlight against the wall.
she got injured with a huge patch of scratches.
boyf didnt scold me, but i know he's unhappy knowing his precious car got scratched by me. :(
my heart aches as well, i dunno what i'm doing either.
i just feel really fustrated with myself.
cried after sending mummy back to yishun, all the way to jurong to work.
i cried. yes, for not being careful enough while driving.
i cried, yes, becos my laptop died on me when my PP presentation is just days away.
i cried, yes, becos i made myself & boyf fustrated.
i cried, for i'm stress and worried for my PP.

3rdly, boyf drove moonlight to ttsh today.
moonlight got hit at the carpark. its a hit & run.
i hope tt driver who hit my moonlight had a car accident and die on the spot.
seriously, such a irresponsible driver. :(
another add-on burden to myself.
$$$$ to bring moonlight back to the usual color without scratches. :(
really down down down down down.
not having appetite to eat either.
1meal a day. :(

i often thought i was close to you.
i never did.
friends are only for the convenience of yourself?
did i ever reject to fetch you guys to & fro cwp if its on the way?
well, i thank those who pratically help me with the dell hotline & offer to accompany me to go over to get my lappy fix.
sigh, i guess friends are just passer by in my life.
they come & go.
only true ones stays.
i'm glad you r just one passer-by cos i don need a fake friend like you.
i guess i handled the situation well enough.
i don owe you, you don owe me.
tt's it.
thanks to my laptop, i get to see who's the true ones around me.
i should be happy isnt it?
well if you are feeling guilty now, too bad, cos no names are mentioned. :)

well, another 3days to weekend. & moonlight will be back from hospital tml.
i'm really sorry to boyf to have let moonlight suffer the scratches. i really do.
thankyou for being so understanding and not blaming me.
conforting words from you is a huge encouragement.
i'm in the wrong, i'm really sorry.
and thankyou to those who helped me looking for the dell hotline;
serene, berlin, shawn, gina, sharlene. much appreciated. :)

and if only dad understands, i wouldnt be as stressing & upset now........... :(

cherlyn pon skool today!

2009-11-13T12:17:00.002+08:00

lack of updates, cos cherlyn PON skool today! yay!

currently at boyf's place since this silly one books out at 9am today.
fetch him from camp, had our breakfast, headed back to bed.
hahs, main motive is to get his maid to wash my moonlight. :)

meeting boyf's cousin later & CAR SHOPPING again.
since his cousin is another car modification freak?!
gonna send moonlight for body checkup (servicing) later.
another bill to settle. sigh!

i'm so addicted to this song--苦茶。
&& yes, you'll hear this song everywhere, including my blog. :)

UT yesterday, buang.
its coding, i knew i'll never make it, so ya.

on the other hand, i'm so looking forward to 28Nov, to see baby's surprised face.
hahs, yet, i don want 24Nov to come so early as i have my PP presentation tt day.
so contridicting, but is 24th nov never comes, i'll never get to see 28th nov.
oh man, tt means i'll have to do my PP poster in class while having lesson.
another long week next week. :(

long long post for tricia chia to kill time.

2009-11-11T10:38:00.003+08:00

hi!

i know some ppl like tricia have been camping in my blog waiting for this post.
yes, so here i am.
what tricia u wanto know about me leh?
erm, height? weight? my profile? LOL,, jus kidding la.
trying to be funny issit?

ok, weekends, ubi, to shop for baby's present.
side track abit, ubi is known for car modification.
back to track, i finally come up with a list of 21pressie for boyf.
i ended up having more than 21 presents, i dunno why.
i shall behave mysterious this 2weeks.
hehheh!

next up, some planning to do therefore i need YOU GUYS to let me know if u are coming.
in case u nvr receive my sms, these are the ppl involved.
boye, diana, danny, ruixian, leon, willy, jac, nic, daphne, weixiang, sheila.
i would need help tt day, so please confirm your attendance with me ASAP.
since boyf wont be able to book out on 8dec (his actual bday),
we'll be celebrating on 28NOV, sat.
venue will be at town area, jus a simple meal tgt.
kindly pay for your own meal yea? since i'll be so broke. :(

really hope everyone will be present for photo taking.
thou its jus a mini celebration, will appreciate if everyone took the effort to be present.

tricia, qihui, u've got a important mission.
i'll keep u updated since i'm unable to write down here. :)
okays, i feel like as if i'm a event planner already.

half the class is going to cabot later,
i'm unsure if i wanto join.
yes, tt's how united my class is.
serene isnt gOing, if i gO, i'll feel so bad, leaving her by herself.
sigh. :(

on the other hand, i often find myself in this situation where;
i tend to forgive ppl who make me miserable before, yet i don forget what tt did to me.
maybe tt's life.
it takes time for revenge, maybe 10yrs, 10 days or 10months.
its my fault at times, i might not have the chance to apologise, so here i am.
i sincerely apologise if ever i made u upset.

friends have relationship problems with their partner,
i'm like tt problem finder. LOL.
advise both parties to patch up, whereas i don see what's wrong whenever i quarrel with boyf.
but i really feel so secure when i see other couple quarrel.
at least boyf doesnt treat me tt bad,
at least boyf wont do tt to me.
at least i know who'll be there whenever i need someone.
perhaps, my r/s have gone into greater heights,
i began to understand him more.
well, tt's my love.

sweet friday :)

2009-11-06T15:07:00.003+08:00

its 3plus, only 2nd team presenting..
sians, but well, i've got nice teammates today!
nat, peiyong, serene.
mainly the crazy ones.
i had fun laughing non-stop. nat was the joker of the day.

html today, yes, coding.
had fun of course, since nat did the blog on RP.
she wrote this:

************
Today, RP ate a bowl of Ban Mian. It is the nicest and yummiest Ban Mian in RP.

The chilli is super hot! The noodle has its QQ effect. It is worth dying for.

All OF A SUDDEN!! While eating halfway, RP put the spoon into the mouth and in the mouth, they found a BIG COCKROACH.

RP died after eating the ban mian. This ban mian were sure to be died for.

***********

well, i sure had a good laugh after reading this.

apply my job at resort world sentosa, but unsure if i would get it. :(
i really love those outdoor theme park, and i'm sure i'll enjoy working there.
poor edwin & tricia was drag to the talk by me but there's no CE points. :(
really looking forward to work there :)

boyf was really sweet last night.
knowing i'm not feeling well recently, he sent me this sms:

*****
Laopo is my princess.
Baby is my life.
Sweety is my sugar roll.
How i wish baobeii could recover soon,
How i wish i can bring dear dear out, holding her hands as we walk,
Whispering sweet talks to me along the way.
You made my life goes round and round,
How i wish i could hug you now. :(

*****

boyf seldom did this to me,
and he's really sweet to come up with this. :)
a nice day to start with, thou i was late for skool today.
and this damn faci mark me late for being 2mins late. :(

well well, boyf had plans to bring me to maldives after telling him how poor thing i am, unable to step out of country with him for his 2 yrs in army.
LOL!
maybe i'll spend my 6yr anniversary there, since we will be busy over work next yr.
and he still promise to bring me to JAPAN on my 21st birthday :)
how sweet! and yes, taiwan & HK trip perhaps next yr june, and i'll be celebrating my 20th birthday there!
sense how excited i am?
if baby change his plans about bringing me out of country, he wont see his dearest car again, i swear. LOL!

MALDIVES!

2009-11-05T14:55:00.004+08:00

these are pictures of maldives!

so beautiful.

i wanted very much to go there but financially unable to. :(

i guess i'm the type of person who loves the sun,

jus that boyf doesnt likes it and therefore i'm been deprived of my interest. :(

partly becos i grew up by the seaside, since dad loves fishing so much.

whenever i'm down, to the seaside would make me smile.

this strange feeling i have whenever i'm by the seaside.

the sea is so calm, the breeze, the waves.

i really fell in love with it.

maybe i shall suggest boyf to bring me there for honeymoon or wedding photoshoot?

i could still remember my faci-janice, her husband bought her to maldives for honeymoon.

it was so beautiful to witness the sea in her own eyes.

i wish i could too.

well, tt's for her. me?

i got to see if baby is willing enough to bring me there?

or GOLD COASt? no maldives first!

BABY, will you bring me to maldives? :)

UT blue.

2009-11-04T14:36:00.002+08:00

a quick one before preparing for my UT.
yes, OS UT today. FUCK.
sure fail one lor. sigh.

skool's connection sucks big time, and well, been from forum to forum, helping my lovely to search for his GE8 FIT JS front lip.
was super late for skool today, i came in only during the 2nd meeting. haha
jus finish my presentation and OS 6P is in front of me, but i jus don wan to read. :(

using the internet access over at work yesterday,
and the phone i wanted so much was out last week.
sony ericsson satio. boyf says he'll get it for me after his birthday. YAY!
and its in RED! my favourite color!
over the moon can?
since i'm so broke after boyf's birthday.

am not getting boyf 21 pressie le.
since he wan all his pressie to help him modify his car. dunno is his birthday or his car's birthday lor.
and his 1 pressie cost me a bomb. yes!
and i think i'll get pass him whatever i've got for him. maybe tt will add up to 10 birthday present or so?
shall see.

boyf was the breathe of my life.

2009-11-02T13:48:00.002+08:00

tt's my boy! <3

week 5, and i'm having UT.
SHIT. what the hell is OS? sure fail again.
grrrrr!

class bond rather well, and well, at least made real good friends. hopefully our friendship would last?
berlin, serene, wenxi, shawn, hakim, alot alot more?
strangely, feels like its a big part of family,
like we cabot class tgt, pon class, shoot the faci tgt etc.
yea, i will cherish this friendship.
at least there's something keep me looking forward to coming to skool?

boyf took me out for car shopping yesterday @ ubi, tgt with danny.
shopped for a car since danny is getting his soon.
prices comparison, specification, horse power etc etc.
it all came back to me, jus like how boyf & i shopped for a car previously.
i feel, its not about the price, is more on which model you like. and most importantly, u must like it, since you'll be driving it for years.
on the other hand, thought came flashing in my mind.
when will i get to shop for my own dream car?
i like CIVIC since young, at least more practical to get it since it not the high end kind, yet kinda powerful.
if i were to get a 2nd hand one, it is gonna be INTEGRA 2.0. i love its sporty feature, and the kind of power it has.
ultimately, i would wanto drive a SLR (mecerdes sports) or a LAMBORGINI, if i can afford.
i really wanted so much to get a car of my own, but financially permits. :(
if i have a car of my own, i would want it to be in black, with gloomy prints as its graffiti, and gloomy models as decoration. it would be like as if its so gloomy-ly.
i like!
well, wait is all i can do now.... :(

sigh, caught for speeding like again.
damn worried for my license. dunno if it would be revoke. :(
pray hard for everything to be fine..........

恶魔在身边

2009-10-28T10:00:00.002+08:00

back from KUSU island, peaktures up on my facebook. :)
lazy to upload here ;X

daily routine as usual, skool-work-home-
and the routine continues.

boyf's mother is in hospital for a major operation.
pray for everything to be fine.
how easy an operation involves risk as well right?
what's more is a major operation. sigh.

p/s: 如果你有心去做一件事，没有人或东西会阻碍你的。
如果你要离开，就离我远远，不要回头。
喜欢就对我好，不喜欢就不理我，我是人，不是玩具。

its a saturday morning!

2009-10-24T12:11:00.002+08:00

like the title suggest, its a saturday today.
finally i'm able to rest and laze in bed till late.
5days work in a week is a killer, but well, cos i needed the money. :(
i'm kinda worried tt i cant get boyf's present in time.
so stressing. :( :(

on the other hand, i'm so going to KUSU ISLAND tml.
since boyf & family nvr been there before. while me? my last trip there was when i was 9?
a day getaway jus slightly out of spore, and to travel by ferry.
i'm pretty excited thou. :)

yea, weekends is coming to an end, which means work + studies are coming in like 1 and a half day. super sickening. but times flies. its week 4 on monday, which means 6more weeks to a 3 weeks holiday. wheee! and CHERLYN AW is so gonna save my skool leave till the end. so far i'm quite impress with my performance in skool. yea, been late to skool a couple of times, but my daily grade still quite alright, except for the chee-peng-peng's module. plus the most important part was i only pon-ed 1 lesson so far, with no partial leh!
CHERLYN became guai kia?
no way! i jus wanto pon 2 weeks straight before CNY. hahahs.

speaking about work, sigh. i needa change jobs real soon.
my current one has got lots of extra manpower with like quite a few shops closing at 1 time.
which means i have lesser shifts since there's extra manpower per outlet.
ZUL told me to start finding another job soon so as not to waste my time waiting for shifts.
i'm actually kinda miss those days when i got no worries about my shifts. everything is so well-planned and i confirm will have 6shifts per week during my holidays.
well, good things always comes to an end. :(
intentions of going samsonite, but i'm quite afraid of the shifts they'll give me, since i was told they need ppl den will call me :(
on the other hand, i wanted to join samsonite soon so tt i wont be a burden to my current job.
sigh. i don wanto leave myself jobless and wait for boyf to provide for me.
i would feel so useless to wait for someone to provide for me and i don work!
yea, maybe when i'm married i can don work, but not now.
sigh, i really don know what plans FILA have. could they jus open a few more outlets so tt i can stay on to my current job? or will samsonite call me asap?
** mummy! i need you to send me your particulars soon so i can apply the job for u too!**

spend my night at boyf's place after our BBQ stringray supper last night cos i'm super lazy to go home. boyf's out early in the morning to his FIT meetup as usual, with me alone in the room.
i don like car meetup sessions as i don know much ppl there and i feel so weird to tag along, so boyf left me home to continue my sleep. and if u are reading my blog, and u are driving, here's a good deal for you.
"SHELL IS HAVING PROMOTION. 95/98 PETROL IS ON $1/LITRE ONLY TODAY FROM 10AM TO 6PM ONLY. HURRY."
its super cheap, by erm, 70cents per litre?

and so, i'm gonna pretend i'm still asleep till boyf's back. bye. :)

happy + angry + worried = mixed feelings

2009-10-22T14:23:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 48MONTHS ANNIVERSARY BOYF!

woke up this morning with a pleasant surprise, a very happy day to start with.
sis bought me 2 gloomy bears and set it beside my bed.
how sweet, i open my eyes this morning and saw a green & a pink one beside my LELE.
ahhhhhh, really a very pleasant surprise.
what a day to start with!

happily went to skool, and something really piss me off.
THIS CHEE PENG PENG (my faci's name) didnt teach us since meeting 1, and expect us to come up with the codings by meeting 3. FUCK HER.
plus she call me "muihui' which i hate most.
yet i reminded her alot of times she can call me cherlyn.
until today i finally flare up in class.
everyone knows i'm damn pissed off by this mother fucker.
knnbccb! this is the first time. suspend me if u want. i don care.
don let me see u on the road, i sure knock u down with my friend's car one.
i don wanto dirty my car lor.

and another bad news,
boyf's mum gonna have a operation.
i don really know what really happen to her, since boyf don even know either.
but i hope it wasnt a major one.

fuckman, CHEE PENG PENG U BETTER WATCH IT.

quick one~

2009-10-21T15:26:00.002+08:00

a quick one before i go to work.

sunburnt. skin started peeling especially my face. :(
how depressing. but i think i look much tanner?
whatever, boyf will still love me one i know..
2more days to weekend and i am so gonna enjoy myself to the fullest.
pillow fight with boyf again. yay!
seems like we got lots of stuffs to do tgt. well well, don think dirty.
couple not only can do tt one tgt de lor!
we got our favourite forums to read, surf the net!

stupid danny goh jio us go for a movie on sun which was super bloody.
DARAH.
make me don dare to eat meat for days. =.=!!

lesson is ending fucking soon, and i promise myself to work every week from monday to friday.
in order to get my $7 per hour...
in order for my overseas trip.....
lovely was telling me not to overwork myself, but well, tt's me.
better than i go out shopping right?
:)

gonna put everything to an end real soon.

night safari halloween '09

2009-10-19T12:35:00.011+08:00

peaktures of boyf & i night safari trip are up!

see how this boy enjoyed himself like a little kid. :)

its 3days to our anniversary! sunshine got me that swarovski ring i wanted so much! oh how lovely! & i got a braun buffel key pouch for love~ thou i may be working on tt actual day of our anniversary, we brought forward our anni, but i really feel i've grown up these 4yrs with him. almost on the verge of breakup at at times, but i'm glad we held on to our promises to each other till date. :)

friday~~~

2009-10-16T13:59:00.002+08:00

its friday today,
yay! i finally get to see my dearest bro out from tekong after 2weeks.
of course, my boyf!

grandma's cooking very good dishes tonight cos she knows korkor's coming home for dinner today.
see how much my grandma loves him?
my poor grandma, wake up in the middle of the night every night, and seeing my bro's not home, i know she's upset. but well, its army.
she just have to cope with it. :(

and my stupid dad, last min decision to the genting.
grrr, and i didnt know until dad called me at 7pm yesterday, asking me to fetch my brother from camp, saying since i got a car =.=
and he called just to say byebye to me as he's going genting at 8pm.
i was like? hur? u going genting in an hour's time? and now den u tell me?
wah, u win liao lor.
:( go genting like from amk to yio chu kang like tt =.=

i'm so looking forward to weekends.
i'm going night safari tml! yayness!
stay tune for peaktures!
:)

emoooooo

2009-10-14T12:15:00.002+08:00

long skool hours + working hours = expressionless cherlyn = emo me.

yea, full shift yesterday since i don have lesson.
another 5 hours today after skool.
oh my god! fucking tired~

met up with zack, jiamin, wanching, peijing, edmund, weiliang, sam, weihao, yee siong on monday at amk.
pizza hut for dinner, & gossiping session.
talking about the past, those stupid stuffs everyone did.
edmund, being the asistance project manager taught everyone how to work 'hard'.
left kinda early, cos i have work the next day.
the rest left for mahjong to jiamin house i guess?
maybe next time we should meet on a fri or something so everyone can stayup late?

and yayness, i finally have my nails done.
i told u i cant go out alone, cos i'll spend like nobody business.
$200 on medicure. keke awesome!
i sign a package with them tt's y the price. don mis-understand.

boyf almost have a heart attack when he saw the thickness of receipt spent within 3hours of my alone shopping.
he even use a calculater to calculate how much i spend.
keke, tt's me, cherlyn aw.
now i have a trouble.
hahs, i spend the money set aside for boyf's 21st. how?
been saving for months & its gone within 3 hours.
thumbs up!

8 more days to our 4th year anni.
gawd. i still dunno what i should get for boyf.
even adrian, (my fila in charge) seems to know me well.
he say : i know u only will buy brands u like. and often the brands u go for is the high end kind. how can u not be broke?

i've been trying to cut down my expenses le mah. :(
it takes time for me to go for lower end stuffs also what.
been really saving up for months so i was thinking to reward myself but i didnt take note on how much i really spend mah!
humph :(

at most i re-start savings from today onwards lor. :(
i wanted to drink, to the pub.
unless i don drive, but i don like taking public transport & the amount i pay for a cab fare is way too much, i might as well use it on carpark & petrol for my own car.
grrrrrrr~
money is the root of all evil.
i need to join the loanshark team soon i guess?

happier note, i'm going night safari this sat!
i cant seems to be happier :(

我的小姐们。。。

2009-10-12T13:01:00.003+08:00

my salvana 洪敏儿 is having fever.
oh my! hope she recovers soon, so we can meet on thurs tgt with lois kays?!

& my lois 小姐 ah, dunno who more 大小姐 then me hor?
thurs ah, don forget!

我的亲爱的 peijing ah, one last meet up before you go suzhou kays.
i'll miss your laughter. LOL!

& my 婉晴小姐, 要加油啊！
大学一定有压力的！
dunno if u are free on thurs to meet us as well?

october 12th.

2009-10-12T12:15:00.004+08:00

first of all, everything is fine already.

i didnt expect boyf to go to KFC at 12noon, begging them to cook another breakfast porridge for me.
i always liked KFC's breakfast-porridge but its 12noon, where can u get it?
this boy, jus went to the counter to beg them to cook jus another share for me.
AWWWW! how sweet!
and he don mind waiting half an hour for it.
i dunno if such silly boy still exist until i saw what he did for me.
kind of contridicting but i still feel its so sweet! <3

next, wanted to go to the auto salon held at expo.
if u are curious, its a event about cars. you know i'll be there when there's such events on cars.
i dunno why i'm so into cars either, maybe boyf pass that car genes to me?
anyway, back to topic~
tickets wise, its 15 per person.
comtempting if we should go in, so i decided to peep outside the entrance to see if there's anything to see.
yeah, i saved 30bucks for 2 person cos its such a failed event.
nothing much to see~
so headed to changi airport for POPEYES~
after which, VIvo, & hit the town as taka is having additional 15% sales for cardmembers :)
wanxuan (boyf's sis) bought a coach keychain,
whereas, i think, boyf bought me something.
i haven received it cos i know its gonna be anniversary pressie.
i really hope boyf bought the ring i wanted so much from swarovski.

saw a gucci bag, which i think it really suits me.
but considering the fact that i would need to pump in $_$ real soon into *secret*
i drop the idea of purchasing it. sigh, wait till everything succeed, guess i wont even look at gucci bags anymore?
perhaps i'll go for a bigger car? hehheh*
some diamonds from tiffany & co, or cartier to pamper myself for the hard work yea?
well well, think only.
i've got 14months to go before results finally shows.
we'll see?

meet up with sec skool friends tonight.
well well, its another round of oh-how-well-u-are doing questions again.
sigh.

on the other hand, i'm actually quite amazed by myself.
people uses 4months to complete their PP report, i used 2days.
and the best part was, my Plagiarism Status is only 4%.
oh well, happily got approved by my adviser. :)
and i've been feeling proud of myself over this. kekeke.
can u sense how excited i was to see the word APPROVED in my student dashboarD?

& lastly, OCTOBER 12th.
its my dad's 49 birthday today.
wishing him good health & may he smile from right to left everyday.
wealth wise, i guess its time i earn for him.
i'm such a sensible daughter u see?
will provide for him once i complete my studies.
dad, u got to give me some time ah!

Happy birthday DAD!
i love you as much as u love me :)

is he worth it?

2009-10-10T23:45:00.003+08:00

read through my previous post,
i realise i've been blogging about boyf.
now, it is really worth it?

i think of him all the time, but does he?
i don think so.

i'm nothing in his eyes.

2009-10-10T23:21:00.004+08:00

just continue to be that self-centered person.
you don cared for our future nor my feelings.
i'm damn fucking pisssed off today.
if your car is more important that me, den don look for me.

get your car to cook scallop porridge for you when u r sick,
get your car to seat beside you to look at you when u are having fever,
get your car to change your towel for u when u are having fever,
get your car to fetch you to and fro camp every tue, thurs & fri,
get your car to hug u, kiss u or talk to u whenever u need someone to talk to,
get your car to stand up for u whenever other people despise u,
get your car to plan 8months in advance for your birthday,
get your car to make funny faces to cheer u up whenever u are sad,
get your car to have dinner with you,
get your car to pan everything for your future!
don look for me!

i feel so much like a spare tyre.
fuck man, the car is more important than me!
GGRRRRRRR!

car first, i'm second. :'(

boyf is sick!

2009-10-09T15:04:00.006+08:00

yo!
too much blue little wordings are bad for eyes yea?
so i shall change it to black ones :)

some overdue peaktures :)
was working at natas travel last holidays, coincidentally there's food fair....
so me n tricia almost went crazy upon seeing food, therefore i cant help but bought this for boyf..

my lele with its new baby sister, tangtang. the background's burberry bag was the one boyf bought for me. :) tangtang says hi~

for those who took my car before, this car is the same model as my car. can u believe it? seems like my moonlight needs a full make over soon yea?

cant help but to snap this picture, cos i am so so in love with flat flat cars. NOT customise den flat de kays! i love sports cars that are flat by nature. hehheh

and presenting my 2 additional colors to my collection! can u tell which 2 are the new ones?

-answer: green & gold-

and me, while the expressway was having a massive jam.... together with my boy, LELE.

its friday today, yet my beloved one is having fever.

i cant concentrate on lessons, all i had in mind was to stare at the clock, hoping it will move alittle faster, so i can fetch my beloved one to the doctor's as soon as possible.

even to the extend that i ask beloved to get permission to book out early.. :'(

i'm so worried.for the first time, honestly.

i've got a few things to do on hand.

-plan something enjoyable for boyf on our 4th year anniversary.

-get my eyebrows fix

-not forgetting my nails needs some love too :)

-shop for boyf's anniversary pressie

-planning involves other ppl, hopefully they co-operate?

-should i jus chop off my hair? comments please?

its 3.30pm. time to finish my RJ & camp outside boyf's camp till he book out.

got to rush him to the doctors.

or wait, should i go home n cook his favourite scallop porridge for him?

-scratch head-

2 weeks to 4yr anniversary!

2009-10-07T12:55:00.002+08:00

faggots!
i dunno what should i plan for boyf's 21st & for the upcoming 48th months anniversary.
its our 4th yr together this coming 22nd.
ohmygod.
i cant believe this.
free flow of quarrels, free flow of happiness. time really flies.

he watched me grow up within these 4 yrs, and i did see how much baby grow too.
from a little ah beng, to a responsible army boyboy, to self-less caring man to me.
feels so much secure with him now,
as i know he always had me in mind, taking care of me like my dad.
my ideal husband type, jus that i would prefer boyf to be romantic more :0
hees.
which girl don like surprises from their boyf?
*hint hint*

back to the big question mark in my brain.
where shall i bring boyf to? how shall i celebrate this big day of ours leh?
any suggestions?
i had a plan on mind but i have to spend within budget, cos there is another big one in dec--his birthday. :(

how i jus hope i can strike lottery today. LOL
so i don have to worry spending over budget again.
cash flow seems tight, cos i have moonlight back with me.
ohmygod. how i jus wish i can work full time now.
GRRRRR!
so what should i get for boyf leh?
headache again.
sigh.

time for some planning.
sob sob

first of all,

2009-10-05T13:45:00.002+08:00

start of a new week,
new environment, new classmates, new faci.
everything went pretty smoothly for me today.
GPA dropped. i couldnt maintain it at 3. such a disappointment.
who ask me keep pon skool ahh? :(

yr 2, sem 2.
jiayou ah, you've finish half of the skool term, 3 more to go & i'll be out of here!
WEET!
on the other hand, korkor is gonna go tekong tml, NS life.
pray for everything to be smooth for him :)
no worries ah korkor, army got seafood eat de ehs, but you get to eat compact ration more.

met up with daddy on fri night to pass him his mooncake.
he was quite surprise to hear me say i wanna get married.
LOL. and my plans for my future, he was stunt.
hahaha, keep teasing me now. grrrrr~

on a lighter note, family gathering at last on sat under the moon. so sweet yea?
all thanks to dad who make it happen.
told him i wanna had a BBQ and thou he keep saying it was a hassle, but he still did everything for me. from preparing those food, to marinating those chicken wings, to sending those food over be it rain or shine, to BBQ-ing those food for me.
i feel so touched.
i knew dad always did his best for whatever i wan,
trying his best to cater to my every needs.
the most shocking ones is that he came into my room with 2 panadols and a cup of water knowing i'm having fever. <3
that's dad's love for me.
NEVER will i forget. :)

another worth compliment one was my lovely boy.
haven been sleeping well for the past weeks, and knowing i'm tired,
as he went to have his hair cut, up to my place to collect the drinks dispenser, to sending the dispenser back to kovan, he let me sleep on the car without waking me up for the whole 2 hours, with the air con on, as he drive from destination to destination.
i dunno if u get what i wrote here, but still, a big hug to boyf.
forever so attentive to me, so thoughtful.
sending me home everynight seems to be the hardest goodbye.
i would feel so much reluctance to let go.
boyf often accompany be my side, till i'm sound asleep den he'll leave. of course not forgetting some kisses on my forehead :)
awwwwww! sweetness.
i dunno why, but i feel so much wanting to hold on to boyf tight these days.
not wanting to part with him. wanted at least a meal with him everyday, wanting to see his text msges, his phone calls asking me where i am etc etc.
sunshine shall always be mine. only mine. :)

shall plan something surprising for him this coming 4th year anniversary :)

just what's wrong with me?

2009-10-02T01:05:00.002+08:00

its 1am & i'm still on my lappy.
shangri-la mooncakes this year again! this year i bought 2boxes!
i for boyf's mum, the other for daddy. but i cant seems to locate this old man~
i dunno why?! his phone is forever into the toilet bowl. :(

sigh, i'm no happy either.
boyf's grandfather is sick. condition isn't too good either. :'(
wanted to visit him but time doesnt permits.
such a bad bad girlf.
boyf of course isnt feeling happy either.
but in order not to let me worry much, he put on a brave front. i knew that, but what can i do?
sigh!

having mood swings every now & then.
but i've tried to keep that within me. yet boyf still can tell i'm unhappy.
i've got loads of things on my mind.
PP, my brother doesnt wants to help me at all :(
boyf's unhappiness, how do i get him into control?
work, i seems to have unlimited task on hand, but will that means its more to success?
overwhelm by responses, even i got upset with someone over the slightest thing, over smses.
how stupid can i be?
i don wanto repeat those regrets, i never wanto hear those explanations.
i'm lazy i know, but i'm jus not into books, lectures, research you know?
i dunno how the hell i got into RP in the first place.
should have just stayed in NYP in the first place.
lets not blame the skools, blame MOE.
JUST WHAT THE FUCK IS THE CERTIFICATE FOR?!
knnbcb. utterly hate skool life now. how to continue?

now i need santa.
i hope everything is done the moment i open my eyes tml morning.
i hope time can fly faster to the day i graduate.
i hope for that very important success which will turn my life 360degrees.
i hope everything never started in the first place.

this might be the most unhappy period for me.
i'm stressing myself i know.
holidays, i work practically every weekday, while others are enjoying themselves overseas.
i never want my life to be like this.
i'm unhappy with everything right now.

why do i always land myself in such situation?!
if i don finish my PP tml, how to enjoy my BBQ on sat?
FUCK. i feel so screwed.
you've got to work hard cherlyn.
no shortcuts to reach your destination, unless i got hit by a car tml.

EMO me is a annoyed cherlyn.

lousy day~

2009-09-22T00:17:00.002+08:00

PUB + ALCOHOL is the best remedy for emo kids like me :)

i'm back from super import night.
nothing much this year, is SPELLS DOUBLE SIANS to me.
cos things are repeaTing & there is seriously nothing new to me.
compared to last year's, its LOUSY. super LOUSY one this year.
very disappointed.
heng i got admission ticket free all thanks to JIA AN.
else, i would feel so cheated. :(o
its really not worth it.

somebody thinks my gloomy bears are taking too much space on baby's car :(
thus i'll be bring all of them home!
pffft! so hurt to see my gloomy bears being thrown into the car boot.
not even put them properly. GRRRRRRR!
fuck, cherlyn ah, its not your car... i shall bring them all home.
cherlyn ah, wait till you get your own car den display all your gloomy bears on your OWN car bah. what to do?
you have no say at all isnt it?
not even a basic respect for you.
the poor one always got looked down by the richer ones isnt it?
well, that's life, & i'll have to accept it.
:(

happy day

2009-09-20T23:39:00.003+08:00

cherlyn ah cherlyn,
you paid $22 bucks jus for a few hotdogs, 3cup of coke, 3 mashmallow & some tunghoon?
wow, tt's very expensive you know?! especially you are still on budget saving plans.
=.=''

met up with my darlings & wilson.
town for some shopping & steamboat for dinner :)
jus got home & here i am blogging trying hard to forget all about PP.
hahs, totally got no mood for it can?
plus this princess aw here doesnt know how to start PP. neither do i know how to do. HAHA.
wish me luck.
jus a pass will do.
i jus wan a 2.0 GPA, get my cert & off i go.
very hard meh?!
anyway i had fun today, especially with peijing as my laughing partner :)

well well, boyf finally able to book out tml & he's bringing me over to SUPER IMPORT NIGHT!
double yayness!
but tt means i will have meeting later in the night & no more play for cherlyn aw. :(
i get to see how lovey dovey some couple will be infront of me again.
i'm feeling damn sick of it, as if they are showing how sweet their courtship would be =.=
as if i bother.
oh well!

i've got to gO le, some more homework to do & back to my drama series. :)
bye!

spells B-O-R-I-N-G

2009-09-19T21:54:00.003+08:00

hellos.
today is saturday. well, cherlyn aw is super bored staying at home the entire day.
dad has his gathering over at the seaside,
mum has hers too. her drinking routine.
bro is out, sis on her bed the entire day.
grandma ended her day & is in bed, even my younger bro is on his computer with his favourite games.
sucks. I"M SO LONELY & bored.

all thanks to boyf's camp. grrrrr~
boyf is unable to book out all thanks to hari raya, as all his malay camp mates books out early & therefore this poor boy got to cover all their duties.
well well, boyf is enjoying his food over at changi airport---POPEYES.
and he is super sarcastic jus now, saying how great the whipped potato taste, since tt was my favourite!!! sigh. feel like slapping him now..!

research research research.
went from forum to forum, competitors to competitors webby, i'm suddenly feel there's so much to do, & its really not easy to set up an event, what more involving so much money $_$
planning and planning which means i totally don have time for my professional profiling.
GRRRRRRR!
& i am still waiting for yinwai's design. ohmygod! @_@

yayness, i wont be working till thurs.
so i have more time for my drama series, & work plus project?
i needa do my medicure, pedicure real soon.
sigh, & how can i forget boyf's 21st leh?
i got alot of stuffs to worry about now. how man?
& my dearest brother is going to be a botak soon... in 2weeks time?
wish him good luck uh.
boyf will be bringing him for some army shopping before he enter army.
i should be glad tt boyf is getting along quite well with my family bah.
even my dad is so friendly to him, not to me. where gOT fair?!
:(

alright,
i got to choing my drama series now to calm myself down.
hees. bye!
& i'm so going to the super import night on monday. YAYNESS.

specially for spencer :)

2009-09-16T19:55:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SPENCER NG!
may sunshine be with you always :)

my life?

2009-09-16T14:36:00.003+08:00

currently i'm at work over at habourfront boutique.
with starbucks jus outside my shop, i enjoy free wireless. YAY!

okays, read shuping's blog.
lol, i fine her childhood quite similar to mine.

when i was in primary 1, the typical high socking, long pinafore, all tied up hair, including my fringe. always like to act guai at home, bring out all my textbooks, telling myself i have to read my all the textbooks i'm taken out. ended up, infront of the TV with a packet of chips. end of the day, i will keep all my textbooks, telling dad i've finish reading, so dad will bring me out as my reward. keke, oh, i took up chinese dance as my CCA && i'm always the main lead. i asked my teacher why m i always the choosen one, she told me: "cos you r small enough for everyone in this CCA to carry u up and spin in the air! ". i kinda fell in love with it but due to the change of instructor, i quit. kinda regret now... :( anyone still have those dance photos with you? i'm desperately looking for it~~~~ let me know if you had it?

pri 3, tt's when i quit my chinese dance, joined table tennis (quit after 1week), then joined badminton (quit after the first lesson), and then, swimming (quit after 3days i think), den ended up in some cheer leading stuffs, & represented in interhouse track & field meets yearly. i took up art class at night (quit after 1yr), & ballet when i was much younger.

pri5-6, tt's when i value alot of friendships. the then F4, jia an, guoyang, john. typically P6-diamond. i love this class so much that i would never absent myself for the entire year. still remember this MR JIA AN, the one seating behind me, would bring a different insect or animal to class everyday. he's the class's zoo keeper ehs! from fighting fish, spider, lizards etc etc. guoyang, that perfect artist, ah john, the clown~ ivy ho, asking me to the toilet almost every hour, chinying tt shopping queen & salvana tt very guai-est student among us. those were the days. i really miss it now... :(

sec 1, everything was peaceful. sec 2, first, i broke off with my first boyf (sy) and thing turn 180degrees. even everything in skool changed. from friends to foes. only daddy stood by me, telling me to trust myself.

sec 3, things became worse, i started to hang around yishun, joined 850. got tgt with cz which pratically lasted for a few months. by well, those were the memories. serene, peizhuang, yee chin, seah, weixiong, eileen, zihao, ah lai etc etc. 850 kia zai zai remember? i miss those days too.

got tgt with my current boyf (yf) with serene's encouragement. till now, i'm well, perfectly well. i would tell everyone i have perfect childhood, & memories even during the sec skool days, when i m almost friendless. thankyou once again for making it as hard-to-delete memories, cos i learnt from there. i knew who's gonna be there for me when i'm down. you? someone i despise. seriously.

to:
serene: perhaps you wont be reading this, but i thank you for being part of my memory. i miss those days too. :)

peizhuang: mummy, thanks for standing up for me. i miss those ah lian days as well. lol! shall meet up soon kays? LOVE YOU!

eileen: jie, thankyou for that 2yrs memories in 850.

miaoling: mummy will always remember you. be good kays?! thankyou for being there for me. :) LOVE YOU!

chaozhong: same thing, you are part of my memory, shall be buried deep into my heart!

ah lai: korkor, you are the one guiding me all along. i'm bless to have you by my side.

zihao: may not be close, but you are still someone i look up to when i'm down. thanks.

yeechin: sister, thanks for being there. :)

seah: sister, thanks for braving through rain & shine with me tgt with serene. thanks.

weixiong: not much words to describe how much thankyou i'm gonna say. you have to feel from your heart :)

wilson (peirce): not known you for long, thankyou for keeping me entertained these days. :)

ivy ho, chinying, salvana: i am missing those good old days. :(

jia an: i'm always here if you ever need me. msn will always be online for you :) you are also part of my memory. :)

sengyung: thanks for those encouragement even after our relationship. cheer up!

daddy: thank you daddy for being there for me, 7yrs of god-father & god-daughter relationship, i'll cherish it. give me sometime, will meet you soon. you gonna be proud of me once everything succeed. :)

lois, wanching & peijing: thanks for the patience you guys gave me. :)

huishan, qihui, yinwai: may not know you long, but still, thankyou for being there.

justin, edwin, tricia, xinyi: for that laughter, for that rain & shine. thanks for being part of my life. you guys played an important part in my life :)

boye, danny: you guys are like my brothers to me. thank you for sharing your problems. :)

to LOVE: you are the sillyboy that never fails to made me burst out laughing even when i'm in the angriest moment. thankyou for your patience in me, & the unconditional love, care, tender showering on me. you are still the best sweetheart :) love you!

lastly, to u: thanks for being there for me. been years, yes, & thank you for that midnight heart to heart talk. :)

cherlyn aw is feeling great with all those names mentioned, thankyou for being part of my life.

NO MORE HONEYMOON?

2009-09-14T21:09:00.002+08:00

boyf's isnt being sweet at all these days.
he had his PMS.
i dunno why either, & my temper isnt good also, so that means QUARREL.
well, first of all,
i feel boyf put his car all infront of me. on how to modify his cars etc etc.
such a upset mindset to me.
i mean i knew he had this great interest on cars, but all these came on top of his list, nOT me.
how saddening can this be?

he isnt being sweet at all over the weekends.
all he was thinking was which part of his car needs to be modified.
sigh, our topic is all about cars.
sometimes when i talk to him, he didnt answer me at all.
i really feels so neglected.
and this is really pissing the hell out of me, knowing i come only after his interest. GRRRRR!

i always thought boyf & i would be the sweetest couple,
well, good things always comes to an end?
our honeymoon period lasted for 4yrs & now its ending?
i dunno, really feels so lost suddenly. :(

i'm just hoping for a boyf who knows how to pamper me with surprises, crack jokes when i'm down, and stand by me all along when i'm in trouble. is it alot to ask for?!

it seems like my current boyf became another person, when i threw my temper, he follow suit, making both of us go mad. when he's down, i tried to crack jokes to make him laugh, he goes: "haha, funny, very funny". when i'm in trouble, boyf leaves me further.
well, if you think you are a good boyf, den off you go.
i really hate that insecured feeling within me. it jus seems like $$ is the only linkage between us. & i'm so hurt by your attitude last night.

FUCK, why must i land myself in all this shit?!

2009-09-07T02:47:00.001+08:00

i'm feeling EMO now. i need someone to cheer me up?!
will you?

pen it down, with deep feelings

2009-09-07T01:56:00.003+08:00

ahaa? waiting for this post?

well, i've been quite busy over work & projects.
worked at NATAS fair with tricia, & my oh-beloved fila.
hahs!
still struggling with my time management as i really need to spend alot of my time & effort on the project.
hopefully it will succeed and woohooo! my civic will be out hopefully be 2011.
alot of plannings to be done, and i really need to pay attention to the on-going stuffs. :(
i need more time! 24hours a day doesnt seems enough for me.... how sad?

that aside, boyf is so sweet to get me a burberry bag of the design i like while i was at work @ NATAS FAIR last week.
such a lovely one. LOL, and that was my 4th year anniversary pressie! weets!
i know boyf isnt earning much being a army boy, therefore a burberry bag is good enough. good enough for me to feel his love & sincerity.
i always say boyf isnt sweet enough, well, he prove me wrong, totally wrong.
which boy would do this?
a few others & my BOY!
thankyou sweetie for that bag :)

for now, i truly hope for another 24hours a day for me to finish whatever needed to be completed.
caught a movie---G-FORCE.
awesome! 3D one somemore~
i love it, especially its with boyf :)
of course, i miss ms salvana ang, ms ang peijing, ms lois goh, ms chung wanching, mr jonathan ong, ms tricia chia, mr edwin phua, ms huang xinyi, mr justin ho, ms yeo peizhuang, mr lim weixiong, ms christina seah, ms yeechin, mr toh boonlai, ms ng miaoling, mr yeo chaozhong, mr juay zihao, ms qihui, ms huishan, ms ho yinwai, oh man, too much to be mentioned.
see your name here? you are missed by cherlyn aw.
yes, i shall find time for you guys soon. hopefully :)

i'm gonna pray for danny goh's dad to recover soon, and pray for mum & dad good health. i'll try to support you guys with my bare hands 1.5 yrs from now. bear with it daddy & mummy?
its gonna be time you retire and enjoy life. :)

specially for you sweetheart..

2009-09-07T01:33:00.003+08:00

here's what happen on the last day of school.....
a few weeks back, boyf was on leave and as usual routine, he wakes up early & drive down to my place to send me to school.
on his way to my place,
he got into a chain accident, involving 7 cars.
he's the 5th.
well, impact was great from behind, causing his air bag to burst!
for your information, the car behind him, a swift sports's engine came off and landed on the ground.
get the idea how great the impact was?
that aside,
from getting lawyers to sue, accident claims, boyf even went for a full body checkup and got himself another 2weeks MC.
this boy of course was happily smiling away~
i wont go into details on how each car bang into each other......

however till now, i'm feeling so guilty in myself.
imagine boyf was driving honda fit that day?
i wont forgive myself if anything happens to him.
seriously, really glad he drove mercedes out that morning.
thou everything is fine now, but i still wanto make it up to him.
i know everyone will start blaming me should -touchwood- anything happens to boyf.
even my mum. i swear!
couldnt really sleep well for nights, and i really still feel so guilty.
if he wasnt on his way to my place to fetch me to skool, nothing would happen.
let alone this accident.
i'm sorry to get you into this baby. really sorry.

i really dunno what will happen to me if anything happens to you.
i might just kill myself.

mugging for exams.....

2009-08-14T11:39:00.002+08:00

i'm having severe headache...
still dunno if i should turn up for leon's 21st on sat?
all thanks to the severe lack of sleep and the upcoming preparation of UT is killing most of my brain cell, using up most of my brain juice. :(

java's UT 2 results it out. as expected, didnt do as well as UT1.
scored a C.
sigh. UT3 hopefully can do well --keeping fingers cross--
this sem i dont think can maintain a 3.0 GPA anymore.
super depressed. what to do?
blame myself for not studying hard in the first place.
hopefully my preparation helps in UT3 as this is the first time i really prepare for my exams.
hahs, daddy says i'm matured enough to know what's best for me.
well, if i don do well, how to go back to school to face daddy leh?

heavy head, sleepy mind, useless brain.
any motivation?

sweetest edwin got me mac from causeway today.
he's in fucking good mood today i guess?
WHERE GOT TIME FOR TP?
congrats on getting your passport to officially drive on the road! :)

baby baby baby.........

2009-08-13T14:46:00.002+08:00

how's the pictures blast?!
LOL. its thursday today, and i'm so gonna start my revision for UT3 today.
sigh. no motivation at all, all thanks to mr zhang yifan.
i ask him what do i get after mugging hard for my final exams,
he goes: i'll bring your for shopping lor! window shopping.
feels like picking up a stone from the ground and knock him real hard onto the ground, kick him and see him drop dead on the floor.
Pfffffffft!

grrrrr, well, both of us are on secret saving plans as mentioned,
so we only can spend only on neccessary stuffs. :(
now even my shopping also became window shopping until next yr.
i tell you, i'm CANNOT SURVIVE.
I CANT!
don ask me out for shopping please, i cannot be tempted. i'll spend all i saved in one go. trust me.
sigh~
but i shall do some secret online shopping without baby knowing.
hehhehheh, evil grins~

last week of school, before UT3 starts.
6days to exams, 12days to holiday.
dunno if i should be happy since holidays are coming or sad since exams are near?
FUCK.

2009-08-13T13:33:00.001+08:00

here's some overdue pictures.
from bro's 21st to my niece's 1st big day to my most recent sentosa feet spa.
enjoy :)

happy day with sunshine

2009-08-11T11:56:00.003+08:00

well, life goes on.

my sunshine really brighten up my day knowing i'm down.
he secretly plan a little surprise for me yesterday :)
he ask me to wear something simple but chic, so i ask him if i could wear short skirts since i haven been on a shirt for like 1month?
he says ok~
i was wearing skirt and a blouse and this silly boy brought me to SENTOSA.
no joke, wear short skirt to sentosa. i FAINT!
his initial intention was to bring me to the underwater world as he knows i'll cheer up a little upon seeing the creatures swimming here and there.

* side track a little, i was brought up in such a way that i would follow dad to fish almost everywhere when i was young. fell deeply in love with fishes and undersea creatures especially crabs!

back to track, i ended up not wanting to go underwater world as baby would bring me there often like every birthday of mine, i'll spend it there?
dunno is xinfu or what uh. LOL.

went for foot reflexology instead with the fish spa.
since baby & i haven tried it before, so waited awhile for our turn.
was super excited can?!
finally it was our turn and when the person in charge asked us if we want the bigger fish spa (more ticklish) or the small fish spa,
sunshine told me this: baby ah, choose the bigger fish one, more worth it.
i told him i like the small one more cos the fish seems to be more friendly.
so we opt for the small one instead.
this boy ah~~~ he keep laughing the moment he step his foot into the pond.
"baby very ticklish, ahahahahahhahaha" that's what baby told me.
LOL i burst out laughing as well. super funny to see his face turning red as he laugh.
i told him "this one only small one leh, u jus now want the big one more ticklish lor"

then came this angmoh..
"i'll go for the big fish spa"
the moment he put his feet in, he shouted. haha super funny can?!
den baby and i burst out laughing again.

LOL, what a relaxing session.
off to ION shopping centre next for some shopping.
got a top for myself from G2000.
walked around and off to keppel bay marina for a sweet date.
east coast park next for UNO game with spencer n wanxuan.
HOME SWEET HOME in a EVOLUTION wannabe :)
really had my day with wonderful people around.

thank you sunshine for your little effort to made me smile again. i love you, deeply.
its been so long since i last smiled. so long. that's my sunshine!

i'm gonna get my sawaroski ring. i don care~
shall upload the pictures on thurs. <3!

no more.

2009-08-10T00:34:00.002+08:00

first of all, look and try to understand my blog's address.
CHERLYN AW"S TERRITORY.
that means i have the right to say whatever or do whatever i want.
cant take what i wrote here, press CTRL + F4, don read den!
or u can choose to do it manually by clicking on the red [X] on the top right hand corner.
GET IT?

i'm not blaming you for clarifying things with me.
if i were in your shoes, i wont do the same.
jus that i feel becos of what i state here, leads to such a quarrel on someone's big day, making everyone fall out is something i wanto comment.
firstly, my blog isnt a big fuck to anyone, so what i wrote here is part of my diary purpose. none of any of your business as to whom will read, who will not.
secondly, i don see the need to quarrel over such stuffs when blog is my personal space cyber-ly.
i don deny i have fault for not caring for your feelings in the first place.
but what done has already done.
jus like how this friendship has been affected.
this has affected me alot as well.
it all started with my blog, so i feel let's end it here.
don expect me to apologise, cos i WONT.
yes, quite unfair to you, but well, nothing is fair in this world.
i may have hurt you in terms of my words, let it go or not is up to you.

for now, i will not appear in your lives, and please, THIS IS MY TERRITORY, DON INTERFERE. whatever i write here, if u don like, don read then. simple.
anyway, i guess in time to come, you guys wont be mention anymore in my blog or my life, so no worries, nothing of such wont happen again.
becos of this, i know how BROTHERS you guys are to each other, and much less i understand what kind of ppl i should talk about my problems to.
thanks for this precious lesson learnt anyway.

BYE. :)

long long way ahead.....

2009-08-04T14:39:00.002+08:00

finally have some time to blog.
JAVA programming today.
SPELLS D-I-E!

UT3's schedule is out..
less than 2 weeks for me to prepare.
fucker. i'm beginning to stress myself. but i wanto work..... how?!

here's a list of when i'm gonna do: -
1. notes for my 4 modules so i can read wherever i am, without the need to bring my lappy around.
2. start my revision sooon.
3. come up with a list of baby's 21 pressie and set my budget within 2k.
4. a proper date with love soon~ 2person world.
5. outing with darlings real soon. i'm missing them. PEIJING
6. and my forever very busy usual 5, steamboat soon kays?!
7. WORK WORK & WORK till skool reopens.
8. bring my moonlight for polishing.

august is gonna fly over very fast for me.
today's 4th august. danny's birthday on 8august, work & clear my shifts for the week, start my revision on thurs(13 aug), UT3 starts on wed(20aug) to next tue(25aug), start working again & then marks the end of august.
very fast isnt it?
then it will be sep, oct (our 4th yr anniversary), nov (start preparing for baby's 21st) then dec (baby & boy's 21st, christmas) then NEW YEAR. woots.
this yr jus pass unknowingly.

FUCK. accomplish nothing again.
kill me~

i hate school!

2009-08-03T10:44:00.003+08:00

hello, i haven been blogging for days. i'm super busy! spare me~

now i finally understnd how does it feels when ppl leaves you to die.
guilty? yes, its you YOU YOU.
i shall study on my own for UT 3, not depending on ppl to teach me.
i shall be tat independent cherlyn.
pffffft. this has been dragging weeks after weeks. seriously irritating.
i really wanted to manage my time well between work, studies & friends.
didnt work last week all becos you said you are free to teach me...
den? last minute give me stupid excuses. hahs, funny uh?
fine, i shall not rely on anyone.
pffffffffffffffffffffft!

UT3 is really stressing the hell out of me.
work was fine, and i even have to sacrifice my time with love to prepare for UT3.
fuck. what the hell is time management to me?
blame myself for not paying attention in class.
i really hate the way my time is planned this way. not even have time for myself, let alone love.
:( yes, that very imperfect girlfriend again.

got my bursary yesterday, and i'm gonna save every bit of it for rainy days.
sigh, when will i be able to go shopping on clothes again?
when???!
after dec 09. tt's the answer. how pathetic right?
really feel like killing myself.

ohyah, baby booked out after being confined for 3weeks.
was very tired yet went all the way to jurong to fetch him yesterday, all thanks to danny & boye for coming over to fetch me.
how i wish i can relax for a full week before chionging my work again.
but i cant. baby's bday is really drawing near, i cant afford to. :(
i really wanted a memorable 21st for him. really wanted to. & i'll try my best. hopefully nobody will screw up tt day, and if u do, i'm gonna screw you!

i need a date with UT 3 now.
bye.

2009-07-28T12:49:00.003+08:00

okays, cherlyn aw finally got something off her mind.
this made me real angry + pissed off + regret not keeping moonlight by my side..

anyway, on a lighter note,
ION shopping centre last tue & got danny a LV coin pouch.
hope he loves it. :)
DANNY, remember uh, my TIFFANY & CO bracelet on my 21st!
hahs,
yes, so sweet of danny to come over to skool to pick me up yesterday.
& boye too, sending me home from jurong at night.
who says brothers cannot be sweet?!

skool has been real boring, but for the sake of UT 3, cherlyn aw is gonna finish her last lap of school work before entering the holiday with ease.
sighhh, taking public is such a bore.
baby says i shall start saving for a plane now so i gO orchard only 5mins. hahs

but i miss LELE alot alot............
& of course my superman~~~~~~~

screw you.

2009-07-28T12:21:00.003+08:00

-let me take a deep breathe before ranting starts-

okays.
who the fuck are you to treat my moonlight as your taxi?
petrol wasted on your to & fro trip is almost 1quarter, yet you didnt help him pay a single bit.
must it be when someone shows he/she is very very angry den you'll know what's wrong with you?

get this into your head.

if u wan people to fetch you to & fro next time,
kindly self service to top up a little petrol, and please don treat my friend & moonlight as a taxi driver/taxi.
cab over yourself if u wan. cheaper than petrol what, since you have the money.
if u are their brothers, don always treat them like a piece of dirt.
think about them in terms of financially. you ask them to fetch u to & fro is okay.
jus that once they have a car, petrol, cashcard all is the driver pay, yet all u have to do is to be a free loader. isnt it very unfair?
i understand once in a while its ok, and yes, i did fetch my friends sometimes when its on the way.
but ever since they have a car, u treat them like a driver of yours.
i understand that your pay isnt very high, but u think their pay very high lah?

i guess everyone knows i treat my moonlight as a person.
yet u dare to take my moonlight as your taxi?
u dont know the meaning of DEATH uh?
plus, please take note on your time. meet 10am means 10am. 5mins late, u go yourself.
simple.
GET THIS INTO YOUR HEAD.

DON ACT A BIG SHOT AND LET EVERYONE WAIT FOR YOU EVERYTIME, UNLESS U ARE A GIRL.

worse thing is, u once say u don like **** & ****, den u trying to act gangsters uh?
your friends don like them then?
BIG DEAL HUR?
stop being childish uh, now still gOT such thing as bu shuang jiu tio taiji ah?
CHILDISH IDIOT + spoilt bred.

one more time, i'm gonna shout at u in the face. u can try me. COME.

i'm jus ranting becos i feel unfair for them, not becos of the price of that petrol.
u have serious character problem.
don take them for granted. if they ever leave you, it's gonna be your loss.

days without moonlight~~~~

2009-07-27T10:44:00.002+08:00

claps for me pls!!
i'm proud to anounce that i'm able to wake up for work on sunday & on time for skool today without moonlight.
hahas, i dunno how long will this continues, but at least i able to survive 2days without moonlight right?
12hours straight for work on sunday with only less than 5hour of sleep the night before.
7hours of sleep last night & here i am now, in school with a fucker facilitator today!
super power can!
i walked to mrt station from my house for 2days ehs.
super proud of myself! hahs.

constantly reminded of how much i wanted a car before i got my license.
now i got a car, i pass it to someone else to drive while i trained for 2weeks.
life is contridicting. isn't it?

relationship?
isnt going smoothly for me either.
how i wish baby can jus appreciate what i did for him instead of quarrelling with me.
from work, to whatever, all i did i always put him into consideration.
did i do wrong?
sigh.
3weeks no see isnt supposed to make hearts grow fonder? yet its the other way.
3weeks no see means more quarrel. ;(
i'm no happy either.

FUCK up life.

days without my moonlight.....

2009-07-25T23:59:00.003+08:00

its 12AM now, and i've got to start work @ 10AM at JURONG tml.
the worse thing is i've got to train there..... :(
saddest feeling now.
i miss my moonlight.
how the hell is cherlyn aw gonna survive without her dearest moonlight?!
tell me?!

i'm heavily dependent on my car one...
HOW?
sigh. baby says i'll need to be independent and not relying on moonlight to bring me around singapore. :(
so i've handed my darling over to danny for 2 weeks.
& i'm gonna take train for 2weeks, at the same time save $$.
OH MY GOD!
i'll miss talking to moonlight & my gloomy bearssssssssssssssss.
i'll have to wake up super early for skool, rush over to work & back home BY TRAIN!
i don even know where is my EZ-Link card now! =.=

take good care of yourself ah darling.
i'll be back to fetch u on 7AUG. we'll go camp fetch daddy together ok?
mummy loves you!
tell me if danny goh bully you ah.
most importantly, i'll miss you. i definately will.

fine. i'm a retard talking to a car~!
i'm at the saddest point of life now, and the feeling of not wanting to leave you......
:(

2009-07-24T10:35:00.002+08:00

hahs, cherlyn aw is ciao-ing class today.
self-dismissal after 2nd break out! yay!
and the best part is my baby approve me leaving class halfway can?!

Anyway, i'm seriously broke already.
sian! how the hell am i gonna save 2k by the end of the year?
this year really no fate with $$ uh after having that car.
well? @#$!@%!$%

bye, cherlyn aw is off for some shopping. YAY!
got to work later. SIAN man...
but at least that mean $$$$$$$$ coming in.
[bless me.

17 more days dear.

2009-07-21T10:48:00.002+08:00

konichiwa :)

first break-out of the day, here i am blogging.
usual 5 isnt free for break :((((
poor cherlyn aw have to blog-hop around, face-booking to kill time.

JAVA UT yesterday, SPELLS D-I-E.
so so dead. i wrote "i dunno how to do" on the script itself.
power hor?
&& does that reminds me of my secondary skool days again.
HAHA, there was a time when i m totally lost in skool work,
all i was thinking was baby, fun, partying.
so whenever it comes to test, if i dunno how to do,
i will write "I DUNNO HOW TO DO LAH" on the paper & submit.
lol, pure crazy.

anyway, back from brother's 21st chalet.
finally get to see my javier.
out on sunday night & got baby a new phone.
cos his previous one broke into 2 after some violence. :)
chat with him, but unable to hug or kiss him :(
SIGH. super miss him can!
time seems so slow without him. i don likeeeee :(
off to prata house along springleaf for supper with danny, boye, jac & willey.
home sweet home there after.

oh yah, brother receives his NS enlistment letter. 6oct to tekong.
this reminds me of baby again.
last yr when baby receives his letter, he cried.
it was april, and he will be enlist in june. super fast.
the thought of him leaving me for training makes me feel so sour within.
but i couldnt show.
spend real quality time with him & don wan time to pass so fast everyday.....
now, i wan time to pass fast everyday.
cos i'll get to see him faster & he'll finish his NS soon!
super contridicting right?!
well, that's life.

17days. jiayou baby.

baby baby baby!

2009-07-20T13:58:00.003+08:00

some over due pictures before baby was charge for confinement. :(
send our daughter (moonlight) for sevicing & took a toyota picnic out for the day!
ice-age 3D was great! i love the 3little dinos. ;)
& bugis-ed for some ice-cream catcher........

in the cinema @ iluma :)

toyota picnic for the day! brought LELE out as well! yay~

family protrait?! hahs.

LELE, smile!

okays, baby told me this when i was about to enter dreamland. & i couldnt sleep in the end =.=!!

baby: baobeii ah, you see red heart represents both of us. wont separate no matter what!

me: ahhhh, so sweet hor?! but my heart is red, your one is black. keke

baby: what? you say again?! baby, i show you magic!

me: what magic? i wanto sleep le lah....

baby: u see, red heart!

------baby switch on lights ---------

baby: baby you see, white heart leh. i know how to make magic le! next time i jobless i go orchard perform magic earn money for our family.

me: sillly boy! if u jobless one day, i'll leave you de hor!

baby: i know you wont lah. you love me so much right?!

me: you try lor, see i will anot lor..... humph

baby: at most u sell all your LVs & gucci for me lor.....

me: you think too much le lor. i wont sell de.

baby: orh, i go flips our photo album lor.... see u bear to leave me anot..

me: as if there will have answers =.=!!

baby: you keep talking you don need to sleep le. ahahha, baby good night, i go dreamland find answer le.

baby may seems silly, but he is super sweet to me :)

thou 3weeks may be long, but 45months tgt is our trust, our love for each other, the importance to each other, our life. never would i leave you silly boy!

even if u r bankrupt one day. i promise i wont leave you.

so this is the magic he showed me:

---switch on lights-----

lol, i love you baby.

& always will silly!

&& HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DADDY;

HAPPY 21ST TO MY BROTHER!

my luck or what?

2009-07-17T13:28:00.002+08:00

BORED si le. :(

that cheena is seated in front of me today.
annoying or what!
nvm, don care.

16more days to baby's freedom.
seems long, yet it would be a good thing i guess?
i get to save $$ by not going out often.
yay-ness!

daddy & korkor's birthday falls on the same day.
kill me~ korkor's 21, yet i promise to celebrate daddy's birthday with him every year.
heng i gOt daddy's pressie le.
another load off my mind :)

oh did i mention i headshot myself while at work yesterday?
stupid right? was fucking busy suddenly towards closing time.
so i didnt see the panel edge infront of me.
wanted to bend down & get a bag for my customer & OUCH!
i almost cried out lah. so painful.
i have a blueblack jus at the position where 二郎神 have his 3rd eye.
=.=!!

anyway, i guess i'm gonna strike lottery soon :)
first, a cat sleep with my gloomy bear.
next, a white cat follow me up the cae & seat on my passenger seat.
then, a bird egg fall from the tree & smashed my car.
finally, my blueblack like 二郎神.
maybe jus my luck or is it a sign i'm gonna strike 4D somEday?
hahs!

dear diary.......

2009-07-16T13:53:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,

i'm experiencing mixed feelings.
be it in skool, or work or my own personal time.
when i'm in skool, i never get to understand a thing.
when i'm at work, thou time seems to past fast, but i'm always bothered by no time for love ones.
when i'm free, love ones will never be free. now even boyf have no time for me.
so lonely, so empty.
i am not trouble i guess?
i jus feel my life is so screwed.

looking back into my past,
i'm proud of myself in my primary school days.
able to participate in competitions, securing quite a few throphy for the school in dance competition.
i guess dance & track & field was my proudest moment.
sadly, i quit those interest to play.

often a times, i regretted quiting dancing just becos we have a change of teacher.
track & field, becos of my own lazy-ness.
ever since i quit track & field, i have no chance to compete for the school.
no more. everything i did was for myself.
i actually miss those feelings of afraid i can't win in each competition.
i have perfect primary school days. not secondary.

i don blame my friends for that dreadful period of time in my secondary school days.
becos of this, i made real friends whom i know they'll always be there for me when i'm down.
becos of this, i know your true colors.
becos of this, i was force to grow up & be strong on my own.
becos of this, i have wonderful memories with people at 850 then.
miaoling, peizhuang, chaozhong, ah lai, zihao, eileen, jia en, weixiong, serene, alot alot more.
i seriously felt part of them then.
we may have quarrels time to time, but we know each other from there.
we may have become those typical ah lians & ah bengs then, we have fun disturbing innocent ones isn't it?

after graduate, what have i did?
work & work for $$, realise i have come to the real working world unknowingly.
back to study, nothing seriously interests me much.
made great friends here, most memorable moments are times i spent with my usual 5.

parents are getting old, yet they hold on tight to provide for me & the family.
when will i start to provide for them?
i know alot of people wont have these type of feelings at my age,
i jus wanted to let my parents know if ever none of my siblings provide for them, i'll be there for them. i love them, i really do.

people says 10years still long lah.
but i've spend 19yrs of my life accomplishing nothing. NOTHING.
other than creating trouble for people. :(
all i have accomplish was my car. for my own benefit.
selfish me isn't it?
money is the root to all evil.
i really feel so useless studying in RP lah.
its totally useless.
if i were to choose, i would still wanto work & start saving for my business.
isnt that more practical?

give me drug that allows me to start my life all over again.
i often envy people at my age to have accomplish something out of their life.
what about me?
things remain as it is.
sigh.

SCREWED LIFE.

with regards,
cherlyn aw.

transformers come to life!

2009-07-16T12:35:00.002+08:00

okays, car roadshow @ expo on sunday.
i was so excited to see optimus prime & bumble-bee lah~~
cos i have got optimus prime, bumble-bee & magatron. ;)
xinlin was saying he don remember taking any pictures with me when i show him this photo =.=

optimus PRIME :)

BUMBLE_BEE! my fav!

17 more days before baby book out :(

i'm super bored by my current life.

work, study, work study.

even if i were to go out, no mood at all.

i guess everyone knows, if miss cherlyn aw is in bad mood,

she'll spend like nobody's business.

months of savings will be gone in jus one day.

so when if u every notice me buying alot of stuffs, i'm unhappy or troubled. ;)

anyway, haven been buying clothes for a month i guess?

usually i will buy clothes almost every week.

bought a dress from blogshop & 2 cardigen from IMM.

that's it.

NO MORE CLOTHES FOR CHERLYN AW.

NO MORE!

needa go check if my IT fair's pay have come in.

hopefully it does, cos i need to start buying baby's 21 pressie bit by bit.

who's free to go shopping with me ah?!

baby's phone spoilt, & i'll thinking of getting him a new one.

maybe a second-hand one.

FILA had reshufflement.

still under shwubing. but territory incharge changed to marcus.

tht means increase of my pay chance is higher?

ION shopping centre will be up by 21july.

i shall mark ION shopping as my favourite shopping centre :)

cos the LV boutique is super big one.

2level somemore & the boutique layout is super organise. i likeeeeee!

if anything doesn't goes wrong, i should be able to get my LV bag by oct or nov!

YAY-ness.

& the happiest thing of my life,

5weeks to end of semester.

gonna miss everyone but not tt stalker. hahs~

till then!

best regards,

cherlyn aw.

2009-07-14T11:32:00.002+08:00

as of 14july2009,
i have 19 more days of loneliness or rather, 19 more days to spend fulltime with FILA.
well, 19more days to baby book out :(

java lesson today. everything was alright jus that many of my classmates lose motivation already.
UT results are out.
moderate uh, jus that i bet UT2 i sure die!
don care.

sat, korkor's chalet.
weijie, xueni & me are going for mahjong till dawn on friday.
YAY!
willey's bday, i guess i wont be going bah.
baby isnt with me, or i'll feel weird if i go alone. ;(
bye.

over the weekends.

2009-07-13T10:54:00.002+08:00

hi,
suddenly got the mood to blog in chinese but i dunno what to blog about.
lol, so maybe in english better bah?

baby told me that he wont be booking out starting last friday till 31july.
i was in a very emo mood since.
heavy heart to work, lousy feeling. :(
den.......
i was busy serving customer last friday when this customer came to help me fold the clothes.
i looked up and it was baby.
okay, he jus wanto surprise me.
i was over the moon and hug him infront of everyone, even under the camera.
LOL, my in-charge look at me.........
den i was like erm, sorry. LOL
den everyone burst out laughing at my reactions.
everyone knows i miss baby alot. :)

he waited for me to knock off and then,
supper at chomp chomp & hit the dam next.
as usual, talked about cars, our future.
boye fetch danny home next, and me over to baby house for the night.
was super tired le, so head to dreamland while baby went to bathe.

sat,
i woke up super early cos boye wanted to meet diana earlier.
send moonlight for sevicing, and took boye's car for the day.
bugis-ed, prayed & ICE CREAM catcher.
3D ice-age & parkway parade next.
my gold necklace broke, so went over to poh heng to change.
baby got me a bigger gold necklace instead, trade-in my old necklace.
weeet!
bowling at home team after sending diana home.
kays, my results really getting lower & lower.
long time nvr play le bah?
anyway, i had fun.
back to amk for supper & home at 5am.

out at 3pm the next day, to expo for car roadshow.
very tempting to get a 2nd hand integra, but well, $$$$$$ is a factor. :(
headed to town next & had our dinner.
ion shopping centre to see LV bags.
lol, set my eyes on a close to 2k bag.
baby says he'll pay half for me. i don wan that burberry bag already!
LOL, tt means i can use my taka voucher for my toys.
YAY YAY YAY. will get it in late october or early nov as my 4th yr anniversary pressie.
happy man! big enough for my lappy.
<3

done thinking of what to get for danny 21st.
hope he'll love it.

&&& daddy's bday is coming.
long time since i last meet him.
i'm such unfilial. :(
sigh.

2009-07-10T13:43:00.002+08:00

i have alot to pen down here. alot.

to baby:

人生总会有许多上上下下,

不管是开心的事或是不开心的，生活还是要过啊。

为何不把时间花在开心的事上呢？

21天虽然很久，就让我们的感情接受考验吧。

这4年里，我们也没有离开过对方，就让我试一试吧？

我要学会坚强，不可以依赖着你一辈子对吗？

知道你不放心我一个人，我总要学会独立啊。

2009-07-10T11:22:00.002+08:00

you are very irritating you know?
stop talking to yourself, and don bother to find out anything else.
it really make you a big stalker for u to find out jus my chinese name.
you even knOw how to write!
美慧 is my fucking big chinese name, but what does tt got to do with you?
after entering poly, everyone recognise me as cherlyn.
not even my usual 5 call my chinese name.
who are you to call my chinese name?
i very close to you meh?
CB.

tt aside,
baby has got SOL which is something like confinement for 3weeks.
all because of him during NDP rehersal, he went marina square to play pool in his army uniform.
STUPID OR WHAT?!
got caught by MILITARY POLICE. :(
by right the consequences is to be charged, but his army put in on SOL.
heng ah :)
so, that means i'll have to attend my brother's 21st birthday alone, willey's 21st alone.
sigh, so lonely. :(
well, i guess all i have to do is to work, work, work till the day baby book out which is like 1st august. :(
so FILA, here i am to spend more time with you.. :x
----very unwilling mode on----

korkor's 21st big day is coming.
got him a levis jeans. sorry uh, ur meimei very broke now, all becos of the TP fine lah. :(
willey's big day, got him a calvin klein perfume.
oh, stilll GOT.
CONGRATS TO DANNY GOH IN GETTING HIS PASSPORT TO OFFICIALLY DRIVE ON THE ROAD.
so if u ever see a swift sports in white turning yellowish, & driving very slowly plus change lane without checking blind spots, that's DANNY GOH.
don blame him for his small eyes if he change lane without checking blind spots,
don blame him for his car turning yellowish becos of his smoking habit.
don blame him. DONT. cos he earn me a gucci bag from baby & tt he is my brother after all :)
haha, bet he'll kill me if he sees this.

anyway, to edwin,
it's okay to fail.
go for it again. i'm sure u will pass eventually.
everyone makes mistakes, though yours was a immediate one,
learn from it again. ;)
let's go racing once u have your license, once i take back my points.
hahs.

爱你不需要理由,

只要彼此相爱, 我们会一起度过难关.

三个礼拜很快就过了.

我会想你.我会.

2009-07-08T21:15:00.002+08:00

不知道你心里在想什么，
我也很辛苦啊。。。
我真的很希望我们可以回到过去，
开开心心的在一起，
不用为了小事吵吵闹闹。

我还爱你，傻瓜。永远都会。

2009-07-08T20:51:00.005+08:00

peaktures!
went NDP preview last sat.
本小姐 had fun~
lol, all thanks to baby for getting me 8tickets.
thou it was jus a preview, it reminds me of my primary school days.
kityen, colleen, and tt few whom i m close to when i was in primary 5.
thou we may has lost contact,
but primary school days was the most enjoyable one.
F4, wenni, madeline etc etc.
i really grow up alot.
even jia an says i'm matured already.hahs
NDP pictures aren't up cos blogger is super lag.
enjoy!

H1N1 retard school.

2009-07-03T13:32:00.002+08:00

okays,
here i am.

fucking school has a fucking big problem.
forget to bring thermometer means no attendence.
what kind of logic is this?

next, the dunno what SIT chairman came to my class to check if everyone has a thermometer.
stupid or what?
no thermometer how to enter class?!
CCB.
nvm , he told us that H1N1 is jus a mild flu.
yes yes. mild one.
den since its jus a mild flu, why bother to check if everyone has a thermometer?
ok, the reply was: to make sure everyone was safe.
den since it was to ensure everyone was safe,
den why cant they release us like they release the yr1 for a week?
stay at home more safe isnt it?
or is it jus becos yr2 & 3 study more than the yr1 students, then we can fight with the disease better?!
what kind of logic man?

of course, even that we are sick, we have to come to school for the sake of attendence.
now, once we cough or what, they send us home.
and that means we are as good as never come to school.
nabeh! they even say we cant take it lightly.
den since its mild, den why cant we take it lightly?

if ever any authorities coming up to me to ask me about my thermometer,
that person better be prepared to answer all of my questions.
black mark me or suspension, up to u.
i don care.
let's hope the principle got H1N1 himself then hopefully pass away.
bye~

my collections!

2009-07-03T12:54:00.007+08:00

pictures up :) summary of what i got for my birthday!
first of all, i have 5 cakes, a total $450 red packet from yifan's mum, mummy and weixiong.
i have a big big lolipop from my usual 5,
3 sylvanian familes from baby,
$120 taka voucher from my darlings,
3 gloomy bears from danny, boye, diana, jac & willey.
celebrations was fun n memorable :)
even my class sang me a birthday song and i really feel touched.
&& not forgetting that special night spent at bishan.
and a haven-arrived burberry bag.
enjoy!

going out to jurong to meet baby~

the birthday cake from salvana, peijing, lois & wanching~

introducing my collection!

completed a house & next, i'm gonna save n get that hospital!

the girl's room.

the toilet.

the balcony.

the living room.

overview of my house.

the see-saw & swing for the kids.

the party area.

the gardens.

baby's room.

the kitchen.

the 2nd floor.

old town for dinner that day~

this is diana, me & jac.

the 9yrs of brothership~

boye, danny & baby.

boye & diana.

me & baby with the big big lollipop~

okays, that was danny's hand. he is trying to steal my lollipop. =.=

i enjoy myself.

thank you everyone :)

quarrel brings us closer

2009-06-30T20:00:00.002+08:00

hi,
i went into hibernation mode since this morning.
hahs, java lesson. spells SIANS.
ohhhhh, the class beside mine, have a confirmed H1N1 case!
yay! there will be quarantine soon, i hope? :/

LOL, have a tiff with baby recently.
over car modification.
first time he lose his temper on me.
he have been such a perfect boyf any girls loves to have.
well, me? tt very imperfect girlf.
both of us was in the wrong, but baby still cheer me up.
hahs, i know i blessed. :)
but i don like to quarrel with him too ah~
who ask him make me angry...
kays, baby really say something that made me laugh while my face was black.
"lele, go say sorry to your mummy!"
LOL, kays he really talk to my soft toy like his own kid.
:)

anyway, its sunshine now.
planning on a trip for your 4th yr anniversary.
:)

updates!

2009-06-26T23:36:00.002+08:00

hellos!
first of all, thanks to everyone who wish me happy birthday via text, phone, facebook, msn, etc etc.
i've 5cakes in total, of which the most memorable one was a ben&jerry's ice cream with 2stick of pocky as my candle. this mystery person really made it unforgettable :) thanks!
thou it may be simple celebration, but it was the thoughts that count. seriously, i'm very touched.

next, i have a fucking 'good' news to share.
i skipped skool today. hahs.
at night, my mum called me, asking how many times have i skipped skool....
i was like... er..... today only lor?
haha, RP freaking efficient uh. send letter to my mum.... OMG!
den when i came home jus now, i read the letter and guess what?
the letter states all the lessons i've missed except for today's lesson.
i was like WTF?! i told mum i only today never go..
LOL, i feel like slapping myself.
now, mum knows i skipped how many lessons plus today's.
so, the naggings starts again... .... .... .... ... .. ... . .. . .
wo de tian ah~~~

that aside, had a tiff with boyf jus now.
i dunno why i lose my temper jus like tt.
everything is over now, but i feel so empty within me.
i began to miss boyf. how i wish he's here with me every moment....

p/s: i seriously need to start saving. sigh~ why must everyone turns 21 this yr? :(

my 3rd birthday cake!

2009-06-25T10:24:00.002+08:00

wednesday-24 june 09
2hours before the clock strikes 12am......
here we are, at kepple bay marina to cut my cake :)
enjoying my last 2 hours of 18, welcoming my 19 in a very unwilling manner ... ...

before that, we headed to marina barrage, and steamboat for dinner :)

me & best friend simply seat and wait for food cos we have 2 chef of the day, tricia and edwin :)

i swear i love food that is high in salt content & EGGS!

yummy!
this is my best friend-justin, tt science dictionary!

and this is our food :)

edwin, tt mr rich :)
the very unglam one is tricia chia peijing. hahs. my darling uh :)

and we went iluma shopping centre's arcade. and this is very cool~

everyone should know almost aloT of arcade has gOT this UFO-catcher machine.

well, this is nOt a soft toy. this UFO-catcher machine catches ice-cream!

okay, i'm very into cars. i think everyone knows. but bike leh? i only like harley davidson :)

so i was very fasinated when i saw this at the arcade :)

i don wanto move already. hahs.

should i get a class 2B license?

okay, harley is a class 2A license :(

let's welcome my 19th with a positive mind.

i've gOT a MARTELL VSOP from ruixian!

those who drink liquor should know its very expensive uh.

i shall keep it for my 21st big day!

me loves!

a very big thankyou to those who wish me happy birthday when the clock strikes 12 :)

first of all, my lovey laogong! MR ZHANG YIFAN :)

he sang me a birthday song in a sleeping tone ;X cos he's very tired from all the trainings in army..

tricia chia, edwin, justin, xinyi, wanxuan, weixiong, weixiang, salvana, peijing, lois, wanching, yinwai, willy (tpy), chun sing (tpy), jac, willey, diana, boye, danny, yee chin, my korkor, my mummy, leon, huijen, baoying, valerie, zahil, my cousin-ah chuan, siok zhen, jack, my MR zoo-keeper-NG JIA AN.

sorry if i missed anyone out,

i really appreciate it :)

&& yinwai is super sweet today!

she bought me 2slices of cake, and brought it up to my class.

SWEET right!

thankyou yinwai! mucks!

3 new members to my family~~

2009-06-22T14:47:00.003+08:00

first of all,
cherlyn cam-whore session while waiting for my boy to come over :)

&&&& these are my advance bday celebrations pressie from danny & co.......

family protrait w/o daddy + mummy + tweet tweet + alot alot more uh

the 3 new members to my GLOOMY FAMILY~ awwwwww. love it!

this is pipi, my baby gloomy! able to crawl ehs! thank you willey + jac ~

danny got me this. the very evil one. hahs, able to flap its wing! cool~

thanks to boye + diana. the idiot who kill his owner with the leg. able to move its legs~~~

&& my dearest LELE with PIPI~ awwwww! sweet. piggy back~

tt's all i've received for my birthday celebration!

guess i'm more in love with gloomy than huishan already. hahs.

ohhh! plus a kinda big red packet from baby's parents..

thanks alot everyone. i'm happy & contented already as baby's gonna get me tt burberry bag for me once it arrive.

made a reservation for it already! woots.

& i gOT caught for speeding again.

YES AGAIN!

take all my points you want uh! :(

i shall go bugis pray soon.... sigh~

may my appeal succeed.

cheer up cherlyn!

its your birthday week~ :)

much loves!

regards,

cherlyn.

p/s: what's the defination of LOVE & what does it means to be in a RELATIONSHIP with someone you love? how painful was it to let go when u are deeply in love with that person?

becos you are mine, baby

2009-06-19T11:01:00.002+08:00

suddenly i feel PS-ed.
danny & co are going to genting highlands today,
leaving me & baby + ruixian behind :(
i thought we say hao after baby's army den we'll go HK tgt?
well, now only after boye's ORD jiu go genting, PS us. :(
i jus feel weird that they went off like tt, as i know baby is kinda sad not able to join his brothers for this trip.
i jus don wanto see baby like this.
its as if his brothers don care about his presence at all.
i'm not saying you guys cant go overseas without him,
but at least not that kind of last min decision right?
you guys decide le den tell him your plans, he can't do anything right?
& the reason you guys give is "i thought you never book out!"
YOU THOUGHT, HE THINK, WHO CONFIRM?
baby is seriously kinda disappointed thou.
i know, i can feel it.
at least you guys should have ask him before making your decision right?
we are still planning if we should organise a BBQ to celebrate my birthday & ruixian's belated 21st this sat.
looks like everything goes down into the drain. :(
if you think baby is contented to have me only,
you are wrong.
I KNOW he feels neglected.
he values his brothers as much as me.

i once thought baby is very lucky to have found such 'blood' brothers,
wont leave him in times of need,
well, maybe? or perhaps? i was wrong.
baby is upset enough knowing he cant book out for a month.
yet every book out, he'll ask you guys along for dinner. he just wanto see you guys even on days he book out.
whatever you guys do, or whatever decision you make,
be it becos of girlfriends, or whatever,
please don hurt my baby's feelings.
i wont wanto see him sad. NEVER.
all becos i love him. and i really do, not becos of his money, not just by saying 'i love you'
its from within my heart, and i'll be affected badly through his up and down side of his life.

no offence here brothers & sisters,
i'm jus pen-ing down my thoughts.
i've know you guys for 4-5yrs, i treat you guys as my brothers as well.
as long as baby is happy, i'm more than contented.

do take care on your trip. :)
i guess baby would be glad to see you guys return soon,
thou he might not be able to book out then.

best regards,
cherlyn.

meant for each other, i believe.

2009-06-18T09:53:00.007+08:00

as promised, pictures are up. :)
cos i finally remember to bring my camera to skool today!
hahs.
first of all, ruixian's bday over at tt dangerous place.
pictures are all taken before his hands were chop, and none of us got injured.
birthday bash by his brother :)

cry somemore? well i guess most of us really cried when we are in hospital :(

fierce? ppl are more fierce than you guys :)

smile! brothers for life :)

happy birthday LIM RUI XIAN!

twist baby twist!

baby says we should train ourselves to be more photogenic as if we are taking wedding photo. tt's y he stands so straight. LOL. he is nervous when taking wedding photo? SILLY!

over at weixiang's 21st bday celebration :)

when i'm sad, baby brought me to toy 'R' us and did this in exchange for my smile. super sweet right?! me love me love!

advance bday celebration with danny & co. notice only 1 candle? i'm young young young! don care :)

the couple of 3yrs 8months as of 22june09 :)

ben xiaojie's bday cake! its DURIAN cake! woots! xie xie danny & co, plus baby :)

baby over at keppel bay marina :)

i went on to perm my hair :)

camwhore session while baby went to bathe..........................

& off we go somewhere that belongs to us :) LALA land~

baby become tanner right?

& my baobeii's 4yr old bday :)

a happy family!

this is danny & co, DANNY GOH IS THE ONE IN THE MIDDLE. my sister ehs! LOL. ruixian & willey by the side. where's boye uh?

and this is my moonlight under the moon. :) look how bright she is? baby was saying he's worried that moonlight will have many suitors........ cos she is so pretty! LOL, silly boy :)

end of pictures :)

seriously i don know how my bday celebrations will be like? :(

no more flour this yr please!!!

advance bday celebration!

2009-06-13T11:21:00.003+08:00

hello everyone.
Hahas.
i know i MIA quite long le,
only mAnage to keep in contact with quite a few....
welll, that's life. :(

been busy with work at fila, IT fair etc.
no time to meet dADDy,
no time for baby as well.
when i'm free, they are not free.
sigh...
anyway, i went over to NYP on tue to find peijing.
by right, i should learn java there.
but somehow, by left, i ended up playing games there. LOL
den brought lois & peijing to keppel bay marina.
had lots to catch up about since lois is our telecast. OPPPPS!
i was telling them, if they were to ask me out, don bring me to shopping centre.
cos i'll start spending like nobody's business.

that aside,
baby planned a surprise for me last night.
bought my favourite durian cake and brought me to east coast park to celebrate my bday in advance.
how sweet of him :)
as this week will be his last week to book out, as he is down for NDP :(
thou it was a short celebration,
i'm contented.
& that DANNY GOH insist i'm 19.
me don wan!!! !#@@$#%$

pictures will be up by next post i promise.
cos currently i'm using sony vaios to blog while i'm at work.
hahs, till then.

with warmest regards,
CHERLYN :)

my thoughts at this point of time

2009-05-28T15:33:00.002+08:00

i HATE.
hate what?
PRESENTATIONS lah.
cos i don usually contribute much to my team.
so when my team mates ask which slides i'm taking,
my mind would go blank.
cos i feel very guilty nOt to contribute.
i jus cant concentrate.

sigh.
this sem's result sucks big time.
how to get 3.0 for GPA?
how to survive?
:( i'm in holiday mood already mah :)

birthday coming in 27 more days.
baby's gonna bring me to get my bday pressie.
MY GUCCI BAG.
feel bad thou.
cos his pay isnt tt good, what do u expect from a army boy?
my bag would cos 2months of his pay. :(
but i hope my friend's pressie would help abit.
taka voucher!
at least baby would have to pay all for tt bag if i have taka voucher.

im gonna work over at IT fair again i think?
6.5 per hour.
need to save for baby's 21st bday pressie uh.
hopefully everything will went smoothly for us, till that day we die.
3yrs 7months.
few yrs to work for $$$$$$$$$$$$,
get engaged and married when house arrives.
and we'll live happily ever after :)

loves him.

regards,
cherlyn.

lucky escape?

2009-05-26T15:16:00.002+08:00

haven been blogging for days.

well, i must say.
SWAY OR WHAT?!
happy happy go chalet, end up,
bday boy ended in hospital.
21st bday somemore.

i wont go into details,
but i would say we're lucky enough to be alive now.
50stitches here and there.
and i keep dreaming of the wound they have.
couldn't sleep well at all.
cried so badly everytime i think of it.
sigh, why are ppl so cruel?

luckily they're fine now.
discharged from hospital yesterday,
and bedok HQ today.
hopefully police manage to catch them :/
sigh, why such things have to happen on my friends?

off to chalet.

2009-05-22T12:10:00.001+08:00

I'm off to CHALET :)
FUN! FUN! FUN!

wait for my next post~
alot of pictures coming up :)

regards,
cherlyn.

its still her eventually.

2009-05-21T14:33:00.002+08:00

sigh, i feel moodless.
class have been alright for me provided i pay attention in class.
well, soon i guess,
there will be couple in class.
anyway, tt aside,
UT today after skool & i need to rush off to work later.
sigh, how hard my life is?
well, i don mind.
i work hard to enjoy the comfort of enjoying the luxury of a car.
thou it isnt any big car like mecedes & such,
but i'm contented to jus have her.
well, obviously i have plans to change for a bigger car,
but i love her as much too.
ppl aim higher in life isn't it?
i have to work hard for it.

planning to go taiwan with family next yr.
i wanto go redang island first. thou i'm nOt alot into water sports,
but i love the clean beach & water there.
i cant wait.
well, 1 more yr to go baby.
finish ur NS soon & we're off for a break before going into business okay?
tt's what u promise me, don u dare forget!

plus, holidays coming soon :)
how should i celebrate my birthday?
BBQ? CHALET?
well, its on a thurs. sigh. :(

regards,
cherlyn

2009-05-19T13:25:00.002+08:00

hahs.
today's JAVA.
problem 5 already. die die die!
i know nothing since problem 1, so tell me how am i gonna survive in the upcoming UTs?
classmates are slowly bonding,
with them doing their own stuffs respectively.
when it comes to progamming & coding stuffs,
they take it real easy like ABC.
chicken feet to them, not for me & some others.
sigh!

no work for me today cos chris took over my shift.
but i guess i'm going over to meet baby for dinner tonight.
& for now, i need alot alot of rest.
i'm like a walking zombie everyday, more like a robot.
drive, walk & eat.
part of my life my routine.
sigh, when can my eye bags leave me alone?
what should i do?
:(

till den.

regards,
cherlynAw.

Study week for me?

2009-05-18T14:17:00.002+08:00

UT tml on SQL.
wah piang. very not prepared. :(
thou many will say is very easy, but i jus don get it.
class is too competitive for me, with everyone learning JAVA jus like they're learning ABC.
jiayou cherlyn. sigh!

anyway, i am so proud of myself.
i tell you why:
i step into OLD CHANGI HOSPITAL last saturday.
with the usual.
it wasnt as scary as i thought.
cos i heard alot of stories about that place,
so didnt dare to visit that place until last sat since we have nothing to do in the night.
the most scary part was that i saw a barbie doll & some fresh blood.
nothing much. its jus a hospital.

planning to go RED HOUSE this coming friday :)
maybe leaving class at 12 to pick danny & ruixian to chalet first.
see how?
i can't wait for fri to come :(
but before that, i'll have to finish 2UTs first.
which means i need to revise my SQL & IP addresses.
sigh. :(

till then.

regards,
cherlyn. :(

happy_day for me

2009-05-15T13:55:00.003+08:00

i'm happy today :)
becos i went paragon's gucci store.
& was told that i can use taka voucher to buy my gucci bag from taka's gucci store.
COOOOOL OR WHATTTT?

so the very clever cherlyn,
texted almost 3/4 of my phone book list saying this:
"to all my dear friends, if u are planning to get me birthday pressie in advance, get me TAKA VOUCHER instead. thou i know my birthday still long................................."

& i receive alot of funny smses reply. to name a few:
peijing: sickening lor u, don worry lah we will buy what u wan de.
wanching: i never say i wanto buy anything for you XD haha, kidding lah.......
lois: you are really desperate for it. ok lah ok lah.............
daddy: stop buying branded stuffs or else ur boyf wont be able to take it......................
tricia: my birthday comes first hor?...................
edwin: wah, ur birthday still long ehs...........................

one very special person told me these this morning:
" i didnt even receive your msg~ "
i almost fainted can? lol
thanks uh JUSTIN HO MENG KWANG.
BEST FRIEND SOMEMORE!

oh oh,
ruixian's turning 21 in 1week's time.
sigh, another hole in my pocket.
well, after him, chaozhong's 21.
tricia's 19.
korkor's 21, daddy's 38.
den danny's 21, jack's 19.
peizhuang's 19, ah lai's 20/21?
den willy's 21, dad's 49.
grandma's 80, den 4yr anniversary.
wanching's 19.
den baby's 21.
boye's 21.
den weixiong's 21.

so many 21st birthday party coming along.
how to survive? well. good luck uh.
phew~

i m really growing old uh.
still remember when i first know salvana, i was only 9.
now she is 19, and i m turning 19 soon.
10yrs.
we went through alot.
big quarrel, small quarrel.
& we are still quite close tgt now.
i feel so blessed to have such long friendship.
maybe like what pat suggest, let's have a feast when out friendship turn 30 yrs old?
by then we will be talking about kids etc etc.
hahs.
i'm waiting. :)

alot of thought went through my mind nOw.
alot to say.
well, something are to be meant to be felt from my heart.
not all words are able to show how much i wanted to share.
till then.
bye.

with love,
cherlynAw.

new blog new skin.

2009-05-14T14:49:00.001+08:00

in case u are wondering why i suddnly change URL,
all thanks to some childish freaks.
-calm down cherlyn, calm down-

in case my darling moonlight suffer any pain,
i'll bring her out to install camera.
how much i also pay. humph.

anyway, i kinda love this blogskin.
cos its so gloomyly.
hahs, all thanks to yinwai who complete it within 5mins.
-claps-

ok, i'm going to town with xueni.
will update again :)